seekingpeacenhappiness
Humble Servant of All
I came out of a seven-year relationship with my ex-fiance. When I walked away from him, I thought he would leave the State. I felt I would walk away from a relationship that brought me both many wonderful memories but also a whirlwind of heartache, financial instability, and mistrust of all those around me. About a month prior to the breakup, I began to welcome the Christian church into my life. I was raised Catholic all my life and was never really open to religion due to my lifestyle choices. I am now a practicing Christian, and I so wish I would have made this choice long ago. Perhaps my relationship could have been saved; I do also accept that all things happen according to His will. He has admitted taking me for granted and has diligently been trying to win me back. I have gotten to the point that I am willing to remain friends. As a Christian, I can't see him struggle and completely ignore his attempts, but I have made it very clear that right now my focus is on my girls and getting me back on standing on my own feet with full faith on GOD. I am now reading the Bible and learning that love never gets tired, never gives up, but I still struggle with his genuine change and whether he will remain committed to the life change I have made and want to keep. He has been respectful of many of my decisions, but I seek the wisdom to recognize how genuine he is being. This change has also made me closer with my mother and has opened my eyes to the things that really matter and the relationships we form as well as those we surround ourselves with day in and day out. I voiced for so long how I didn't want to become like my mom, as many of us always say growing up. I realize now, after speaking to my younger sister and hearing her speak so highly of my mom, how I want to be just like her. I would just really, really love to grow old with someone. See, my girls are grown up, 14 and 17. I have always craved to be a good example to them both. I now want to teach them that family should be the strongest bond, through good and bad times. My oldest is not too fond of my ex-fiance, but my youngest truly loves him. I also want to continue the relationships that have restored due to this break. Initially, I worried what my family and/or friends would say, but the Bible does teach not to worry about that. I have placed all my worries in GOD's inbox. I also know that we must help ourselves, and He will help us see it through.
My request is for the ability to accept the things that I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the knowledge to know the difference. I seek full knowledge of His word, and the courage and ability to apply it within every aspect of my life. I request that He lift me up, give me the endurance to do the same for my daughters, and never give up down the journey that we call life. I am grateful for all the doors that have opened and the great people that have supported me through this process, including my ex-fiance.
My request is for the ability to accept the things that I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the knowledge to know the difference. I seek full knowledge of His word, and the courage and ability to apply it within every aspect of my life. I request that He lift me up, give me the endurance to do the same for my daughters, and never give up down the journey that we call life. I am grateful for all the doors that have opened and the great people that have supported me through this process, including my ex-fiance.
