If you have asked Jesus into your heart then you are NOT rubbish, that is a lie from the devil, you are a child of the most high God, Jesus! Please read out loud from the Bible what God's word says about you, you are His beloved child and you are the apple of His eye { that is a term which means He is proud of you } He thinks you are so important that He knows how many hairs that you have on your head. Please read Jeremiah 29:11 He loves YOU so much that He sent His only Son to die on the cross to reconcile you to our Heavenly Father. You are of great value to the Lord, He hears your prayers, please do not listen to the lies of the enemy, stay in the word of God and be encouraged! Blessings!