If you have asked Jesus into your heart then you are NOT rubbish , that is a lie from the devil , you are a child of the most high God , Jesus ! Please read out loud from the bible what God's word says about you , you are His beloved child and you are the apple of His eye { that is a term which means He is proud of you } He thinks you are so important that He knows how many hairs that you have on your head . Please read Jeremiah 29 : 11 He loves YOU so much that He sent His only Son to die on the cross to reconcile you to our Heavenly Father . You are of great value to the Lord , He hears your prayers , please do not listen to the lies of the enemy , stay in the word of God and be encouraged ! Blessings !