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Last night I found out ### is on a dating site. I would like to say I'm not mad at God but I can't help but feel that.
I stood by ### the whole time his dad was diagnosed, fighting, and dying from cancer. I was one of his caretakers. I babysat his dad. I did everything I could to help ### his dad and family. I even was mentioned in the eulogy by his uncle for helping so much. I felt so close to all of them and ### assured me that he loved me and was thankful. But the whole time he was being half-hearted with me. I never would've expected this from him. He and his family were so nice and just a bunch of good people.
I don't understand how I could pray so hard for a guy like this, but I got this I ugly secretive side along with it.
I'm speaking all of emotion right now. I'm sorry I just need prayers to get through this. For comfort to be able to forgive to understand.
I stood by ### the whole time his dad was diagnosed, fighting, and dying from cancer. I was one of his caretakers. I babysat his dad. I did everything I could to help ### his dad and family. I even was mentioned in the eulogy by his uncle for helping so much. I felt so close to all of them and ### assured me that he loved me and was thankful. But the whole time he was being half-hearted with me. I never would've expected this from him. He and his family were so nice and just a bunch of good people.
I don't understand how I could pray so hard for a guy like this, but I got this I ugly secretive side along with it.
I'm speaking all of emotion right now. I'm sorry I just need prayers to get through this. For comfort to be able to forgive to understand.
