amontgomery1978
Servant of All
I am so scared. I got paid, but the bills are more than double my paycheck. I'm about to lose everything and it seems that all I can do is watch it happen. I've been praying for a way out, for a second job. God seems to have said no. Now an option has come up for a new first job that pays less and requires a cross country move to a smaller, less expensive town. It seems to be the way he's leading and scares me to death. How can making less money, even if it costs less to live, make enough of a difference to keep me running? And how will I survive the next month or two long enough to even apply for it? And I have no confidence I can even get this job. But he won't leave me alone - I am supposed to apply for this. I don't have the courage to do that. I'd be leaving my family and church and medical support network. For a gamble. Thankfully I have friends and family on the other side so I wouldn't be completely alone, but I have no idea how this would work. If this is what God wants, he'll have to provide everything - I have nothing. But something has to give - I can't go on going further and further and further and further into debt with no way out. I can't work enough now to make it. What do I do, Lord? What do I do? I don't want to move but will if that's your will - and choose to trust you'll make the way clear to do your will. I don't feel it, but I consciously choose that. Hopefully the feeling will follow.
