I am so fed up with God, that I would like to turn###

[cyordan]

God Bless you....you are suffering and in much pain....don't give up Dear...PRAY FOR DELIVERANCE..you can help others ...by example.....I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Timothy Banda]

Lord Jesus, what ever evil spirit is causing frustration, l pray against it. May You show the brother things that will help him to believe in Jesus name l pray

Amen.

 

[alg]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[lolo Jackson]

Honey, whatever it is, please find a way to forgive God because I know what it feels like to know you're going to hell and don't have a drop of hope. You don't want to feel what I feel. If the tables were turned, you'd hate that you're going to hell and you'll never be able to touch, hug, love, talk, or enjoy any part of life. I am physically ill, which is my own doing, and God was healing me in this process, but I turned back to sin. Ever since, my life has been darkness, complete and total darkness. I have two kids, one of which I believe is dying because of my sin, the other sick because of my sin. And I probably will never be able to touch, kiss, hug, hold them, or know the love of God. Just eternal separation from my family and God. Even if I don't know God the way I should, I would give anything for Him to take away all the evil I've done because living in this world, watching everyone live, laugh, love, and maybe have a little hope of something better than this life is so much, but then eternal damnation where the pain never ends. And the mental, physical, spiritual pain is magnified a billion times more than what you feel now. Please find a way to forgive God. I wish that I could be in your shoes and there be a possible chance to be saved from His judgment and know His love. When you turn away from God and you mess up to the point of no return, then you realize you'll never experience eternal joy or even earthly pleasures. Life is a gift; I wish I had known that before I threw away everything important for some temporal pleasure that has cost my soul and physical life. Also, a lot of harm has been done to the ones I love most because of negligence. I wish I had another chance. But I pray God would reveal Himself to you and you escape the darkness.

 

[Angelbaby7]

First, let me say that I'm going to call you Testy just for this post. The "Devil is a liar"! It would give Satan so much pleasure for you to do all that you said in your post. In my heart of hearts and in my spirit, you are crying out for help. All anyone can do is pray. You have to make the decision that the things you're feeling maybe real to you, but our God is a God of Love, Peace, Understanding, Grace, Mercy, and most of all Forgiveness. He is so much more, however, you will never know because you want to quit. I know that there is power in prayer and in spite of how you feel, God still loves you! Let me begin with God has not anything to you. You are allowing Satan and his minions to monopolize your mind, thoughts, and actions. If you could take all that anger and turn it around on the devil, that would be a start! God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of love, power, and a sound mind. The enemy has come like a flood and you're going to throw everything away because things are not going your way! I realize this may be harsh, but it's truth and you need some truth because it will set you free. I am sorry you feel left out and that God is responsible. I can tell you that without a doubt God has not done anything to you, but if things are not going your way, did it ever occur to you that it may be a blessing that the things you want are not yours? The Bible tells us that every good and perfect gift comes from the Father above. He only gives us GOOD things! Those things that you want probably were not good enough or just not in God's timing. Testy, I know exactly how you feel, I have gone through things that would curl your toenails and as mad, hurt, upset, and numb, I didn't give a rip about anything nor anyone. I had had it, I was tired of the fight, tired of seeing things that I believed in turn to dust. It took a very long time to turn me around, but in spite of my wretched self and self-pity, God was there with me through it ALL! He not once gave up on me and I say that because there were things going on that NO one knew except him and little by little, the scales were falling off my spiritual eyes so I could see spiritually. I had health issues, marriage issues, personal suffering issues that were consuming me and I stayed in bed every day and all day. It took a while, but I had to take the first step and God took two steps. There were a lot of baby steps, but God knew how long it was going to take and he has brought me out of my prison, the bondage that was keeping me tied up so much that it was literally choking off what little life I felt I had in me. I'm probably going to fast, here, the bottom line is go to church, if you have to go up for prayer every time you're in church do it. Pray every day, give God another chance, he's given you at least that and more. I will pray for you and want to know how you're doing. I promise you that God has not forsaken you. He wants to heal those deep wounds that have been there for years, he wants to heal the scars that have been ripped open time and time again, but you have to let go and let GOD! He loves you with an everlasting love Testy! I'm claiming that one day, I will call you Testify because you are going to have one heck of a testimony. Step back and think about what you wrote and truthfully admit that down deep inside that God is not the one you should be angry at. I can tell you that God is no respecter of persons and if He did it for me and HE DID, surely He will help you too. Will you please keep me updated. You can call me Angelbaby and I will respond to your post. Father, in the name of Jesus and ALL that is Holy I ask that right now you would touch this soul and get Testy to a place of forgiveness, Lord that you would take this soul by the hand and lead them to the path they should go. I ask for your mercy and grace to wash over this one and I plead the blood line of Jesus Christ and I say to you devil, you are a liar, the Father of lies. Lord I ask that you would send a legion of angels to surround this soul. Father I ask all these things in your mighty and Holy name and I know that there is NO THING too hard for thee. Father, I also ask that this soul's will would get out of the way so you can have your way. In Jesus' name. You're a loved Testy!

 

[Cebisile Gama]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Anonymous]

never be able to touch hug love talk or enjoy any part of life

I am not able in this life either because I don't have anyone to touch or love or hug and therefore not being able to enjoy life anyway, so why not then already cut my throat and ask demons to tear me pieces?

I have two kids one of Which I believe is dying bc of my sin the other sick bc of my sin

According to the Bible, God doesn't punish kids for parents' sins.

Please find a way to forgive God

I wish I could but I am not able to trust Him because I already know in advance that it would only end with just another rejection, just another hurt, just another disappointment. I don't wish that to happen anymore.

But I pray God would reveal Himself to you and you escape the darkness.

Hundreds of Christians have already prayed with no result. Why do you think you are heard? You just told you've done sins. God's ear is deaf to sinners. And didn't you think that if God did exist then He would already have answered this prayer because of the great multitude of those who pray? What kind of loving God would not answer when He hears the same prayer from hundreds of different people? With me it has happened so He is either not exist, not loving, not caring, or not all powerful.

you are crying out for help.

True, but I already know that this help will never come. It's just to break the false illusion of other Christians that God is loving, caring, and all powerful. As my comments to the previous post showed, He is not.

but our God is a God of Love, Peace, Understanding, Grace, Mercy and most of all Forgiveness.

If God says so then I haven't I received it? What if God is the father of all lies and deceit? Because I have not experienced any of that. Father Satan just opened my eyes to see the truth, that's all, you can't blame Him for that.

You are allowing Satan and his minions to monopolize your mind, thoughts, and actions.

Ok, suppose I allow... Then if God is all powerful, why doesn't He stop them then? And how is it moral for Him to send me to hell for being a victim of Satan who blinded me? If I am blinded I don't see where I am going so it is immoral for Him to make me responsible for that.

He only gives us GOOD things!

Then why haven't I received any?

the bottom line is go to church

To waste 1.5 hours on listening to Christian lies about how good and loving is God and to be brainwashed to hope in God who has always failed me? Why would He care for me this time?

Pray everyday, give God another chance, He's given you at least that and more.

If God has used any in about the last 4 years what makes you believe that He would now?

I promise you that God has not forsaken you.

Lie! How can you tell this after reading all my posts? By now you should already be ashamed to be a Christian.

He wants to heal those deep wounds that have been there for years, He wants to heal the scars that have been ripped open time and time again, but you have to let go and let GOD!

If He wants then why hasn't He? Why didn't He use His chance when I have prayed about it?

He loves you with an everlasting love Testy!

Ok, how do you put together this statement with what I am going through? Is that love? Is that care? In this case I even treat drunkards in the park better than God has ever treated me. I have given homeless drunkards cents if they have begged - not saying to boast but to sow that I have at least given something. But God hasn't given to me anything. So if I have done something but God has done nothing then I am a better person than God. And therefore, on the last day I should be the one who tells God what His punishment would be in hell not He who sends me to hell.

Lord I ask that you would send a legion of angels to surround this soul.

I am not scared of that! I can open the gate to hell with an ouija board and summon 2 legions of demons.

Father I ask all these things in your mighty and Holy name

Thanks for praying, now I can see how God miserably tries to answer and fails just as He has failed all the previous times. It's so good that God is powerless, I can mock Him all the time and He can't do anything about it. Hey God, here's a challenge for you if you see this post: try to answer the prayer that He wrote if you can! I enjoy watching how You fail!

 

[Angelbaby7]

Testy, I can tell you why God hasn't done anything, because of your FREE WILL! God will NOT go against your WILL. If you are bound and determined that God is not TRUTH or REAL. Why would anyone do anything for someone who doesn't care about the truth, plainly your mind and heart is made up and you're going to do what you want to do anyway.

19 I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, [that] I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live:

20 That thou mayest love the LORD thy God, [and] that thou mayest obey his voice, and that thou mayest cleave unto him: for he [is] thy life, and the length of thy days: that thou mayest dwell in the land which the LORD sware unto thy fathers, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give them. Deut. 30:19-20.

Testy, you have no FAITH and NO one can give you that! When is the last time, if ever, that you asked God to come into your heart and asked for FORGIVENESS and to wash away the sins in your life and to make your heart white as snow once again. If you're not trusting, asking, and believing by Faith, how can anything penetrate that. That my dear is your FREE WILL!

This question perplexes many. "Free will" is just that. Man has the ability "to will" (want, desire, purpose, determine, intend), and consequently, "to do" whatever he wills. Of course, man is limited in "doing" according to his (physical and mental) ability, not his will. For example, I will to jump over the moon. It's not my will that precludes this. It's my physical ability.

There are many instances from the Bible to explain what freewill is. Let's see a few examples.

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16, NIV)

It is clear from this verse that anyone, who believes in Jesus Christ is promised an eternal life. This means that we are given freewill to accept or deny Jesus Christ.

Another example is Adam and Eve eating the forbidden fruit. God gave them orders not to eat the fruit and told them that they will die as a result, but when they were about to eat it, God did not stop them, though God was aware of it because He is omnipresent. God did not interfere in their choice making. God allowed them to choose death, even though God knew that it would result in the death of His one and only Son Jesus Christ. What is the definition of 'free will' as explained in the Bible?

I'm hoping that this will help you to understand what free will is and bottom line, the ball is in your court. Accept, (BELIEVE) that Jesus is Lord or (DENY) refusal that GOD is truth and you want the right things, not curses and you have incurred curses on yourself as well as your family. Testy, I've never met you, but I'll say it again, that the anger that has erupted inside of you is taking over your life. Until you are ready and WILLING to let go of this you are going to be miserable. I believe that you are screaming for help, however, if what you say is your truth, how can any one thing penetrate your heart that is so hardened by anger and other things. It's like you've built a wall around your heart and tied chains around the wall. No one can penetrate that. However, I will still pray for you and believe that misery is no way to live, not when you can choose life and have it more abundantly/! Keep me posted Testy! I'm believing in your (FUTURE) testimony!

 

[Newbie]

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I am not able in this life either because I don't have anyone to touch or love or hug and therefore not being able to enjoy life anyway so why not then already cut my throat and ask demons to tear me pieces?

According to the Bible, God doesn't punish kids for parents' sins.

I wish I could but I am not able to trust Him because I already know in advance that it would only end with just another rejection, just another hurt, just another disappointment. I don't wish that to happen anymore.

Hundreds of Christians have already prayed with no result. Why do you think you are heard? You just told you've done sins. God's ear is deaf to sinners. And didn't you think that if God did exist then He would already have answered this prayer because of the great multitude of those who pray? What a loving God would not answer when He hears the same prayer from hundreds of different people? With me it has happened so He is either not exist, not loving, not caring or not all powerful.

True, but I already know that this help will never come. It's just to break the false illusion of other Christians that God is loving, caring and all powerful. As my comments to previous post showed, He is not.

If God says so then I haven't I received it? What if God is the father of all lies and deceit? Because I have not experienced any of that. Father Satan just opened my eyes to see the truth, that's all, you can't blame Him for that.

Ok, suppose I allow... Then if God is all powerful, why doesn't He stop them then? And how is it moral for Him to send me to hell for being a victim of Satan who blinded me? If I am blinded I don't see where I am going so it is immoral for Him to make me responsible for that.

Then why haven't I received any?

To waste 1.5 hours on listening to Christian lies about how good and loving is God and to be brainwashed to hope in God who has always failed me? Why would He care for me this time?

If God have used anyone in about the last 4 years what makes you believe that He would now?

Lie! How can you tell this after reading all my posts? By now you should already be ashamed to be a Christian.

If He wants then why hasn't He? Why didn't He use His chance when I have prayed about it?

Ok, how do you put together this statement with what I am going through? Is that love? Is that care? In this case I even treat drunkards in the park better than God has ever treated me. I have given homeless drunkards cents if they have begged - not saying to boast but to sow that I have at least given something. But God hasn't given to me anything. So if I have done something but God has done nothing then I am a better person than God. And therefore, on the last day I should be the one who tells God what His punishment would be in hell not He who sends me to hell.

I am not scared of that! I can open the gate to hell with an ouija board and summon two legions of demons.

Thanks for praying, now I can see how God miserably tries to answer and fails just as He has failed all the previous times. It's so good that God is powerless, I can mock Him all the time and He can't do anything about it. Hey God, here's a challenge for you if you see this post: try to answer the prayer that He wrote if you can! I enjoy watching how You fail!

You can call me a liar, but the truth is that God loves you.​

My friend, God sent His only Son into the world to redeem us. Jesus didn't have to suffer, He didn't have to die. He chose to suffer, He chose to die, for you! He gave His life, for you, of His own free will. God turned His back on Jesus, He abandoned His only Son, He let Him die as a common criminal, without God's grace. He did all this, because He loves you.

During my life, there have been times when I too doubted that God loved me. But God has never failed, and has shown me time and time again just how much He loves us. You may hate God, but I assure you that He does not hate you. You may have forsaken God, but He will never forsake you. You say you have been mistreated by God, that He has treated you unfairly. My friend, suffering is a part of life.

Why does God allow suffering? The answer is simple, my friend. To keep us closer to Him, to teach us compassion for others, to teach us humility, and to teach us many valuable lessons that otherwise we would learn. You say God hasn't given you anything. He gave you life, my friend. What greater gift could He possibly give you? And not only did He give you life, He gave you eternal life! Is that not proof enough of His love for you?

You have challenged God to answer your prayers, but you have failed to understand what prayer is. We do not demand of God, my friend. He, not we, our God. Prayer means coming before the throne of God, requesting that He help us with our needs and wants. The key word is request. We request, petition if you will, the Lord. God will answer, He has promised, but nowhere has He promised to answer yes. If He chooses to answer no, does that mean He has not answered?

You want proof of God? God is love. Where there is love, there is God. In the love of a parent for a child, there is God. In the love of a husband for his wife, there is God. Where there is love, there is hope.​

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God has promised us that He will never give us more than we can endure. There will be times in our lives when it seems as though God has abandoned us. In these times we must have faith and trust in God, because we know that He is a God of love. Trust and faith are not always easy. As I said before, remember Job. "Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him." That is faith in God. We must trust God, 100%. We must trust God completely, because we know He cannot, and will not fail.

You say, "If God is all powerful, why doesn't He stop them then? And how is it moral for Him to send me to hell for being a victim of Satan who blinded me?" Yes, He could stop them. Why doesn't He? Because God has given us free will. We are free to choose, to do good, or to do evil. Some might say that free will is irresponsible of God, but I don't think so. God has given us free will. It is our responsibility, not God's, to choose good over evil. He wants us to make the choice. He will not force us to do good. He wants us to do good, but God will not force us.

My friend, feel free to PM me if you want to talk. ​

Dear Jesus, we come before You to pray for Anonymous. Show him Your love, dear Jesus. We know that God is love. I ask that You show Him Your everlasting love. We ask that You prove Yourself to him, dear Jesus. We ask that You be with him and bless him. We ask all this in Your Name, dear Jesus, because we know that You love us. In Your Name we pray, dear Jesus. Amen.

I am praying for you, my friend! GBY!​

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[Anonymous]

Testy, I can tell you why God hasn't done anything, because of your FREE WILL!

So then God is not all powerful. He can only do as much as I allowed Him to do.

God will NOT go against your WILL.

My will has been to receive prayer answers. I still didn't get anything. Even in times when I allowed him to be God in my life.

Why would anyone do anything for someone who doesn't care about the truth

But why would I do anything for God who doesn't love me and who doesn't care about me? And how can you say I don't care about truth? I have seen the truth. I have wanted to see that God is trustworthy, but he just hasn't managed to show that. Do you expect me to believe something that I have never seen or experienced? Isn't it more like Christian brainwash?

Testy you have no FAITH and NO one can give you that!

Correct! See, you yourself said no one. God is not able to do that! His powers are so limited. By the way, why should I have faith in someone who has always failed me? Can you give me a guarantee that if I put my faith in God, he would care about me this time? And since you said no one too, it also means that I can't do anything about it. Sometimes I even want to, but I can't. I have tried, but God hasn't helped me when I have tried. So what can I do? God also has free will, and if it's not his will to help me when I cry out to him, then what can I do about it?

When is the last time, if ever, that you asked God to come into your heart and asked for FORGIVENESS and to wash away the sins in your life and to make your heart white as snow once again.

It has happened. When I was a Christian, I even did it daily. After I understood that God is useless garbage, it became less and less. Sometimes I wish (pray) that I may be able to come out of it and then ask for forgiveness in hope that maybe he hears me this time, but when I see that he didn't care, then I go back to my normal life (talk as much bad of him as I can, because he can't do anything about it anyway). The last time I think was yesterday because I got a little too much brainwash.

Of course, man is limited in "doing" according to his (physical and mental) ability, not his will. For example, I will to jump over the moon. It's not my will that precludes this. It's my physical ability.

But what if I do have the will to be a normal Christian but no ability/power to do that, and God doesn't give me that either despite my prayers? Basically, in your long letter, you just accuse me for things that God did wrong. I have none of my part over and over again. That is to pray and ask for forgiveness. God has not done his part (which is to answer prayers). I don't understand why you treat me as if I had never wanted to be a Christian?

and you have incurred curses on yourself as well as your family

That's the classical Christian brainwashing scheme. You can't show that God is loving, then you try to explain it away with free will, and now you are threatening me with curses for not believing in a liar who lies that he loves me? And why would curse my family? What have they done wrong? The Bible even teaches that each one gets punishment for their own sin. You don't even have a correct understanding of the Bible. See, there are many worldly people who are not cursed. Why would I get cursed? See Bill Gates or Putin or just everyday people who go to work on weekdays and clubbing on weekends. Where is their curse?

I even put his curses to the test today! The Bible says, "So then, whoever eats the bread or drinks the cup of the Lord in an unworthy manner will be guilty of sinning against the body and blood of the Lord." I went to church today, and before eating the bread and drinking the cup, I cursed and blasphemed God and told him how useless he is and renounced him and his son and cast away his rotten Holy Spirit. I did it because I remembered from the Bible that some people have received sickness or death for that. So I prayed to God that if he has to do something about it, he would choose death because if he chooses sickness, it wouldn't really help me because I wouldn't turn back to him because of that, and then I would still have to commit suicide later. But when God kills me for that, then it's finished, and I don't have to go to the graveyard with an ouija board to summon demons to kill me.
But see, I am still alive and posting this, so it looks like the Bible was wrong again. And I found another promise of God that turned out to be a miserable lie.

Until you are ready and WILLING to let go of this, you are going to be miserable.

I am willing, but screaming for help, but God is not able. The only right thing I can do about it is to cast spells that make me forget about God. This way, I get out of it because I wouldn't think about God anymore, and if I don't think about him, I won't get hurt by thinking that either. If I never became a Christian at the first point, my life wouldn't be miserable right now. All my problems I have right now are because of Christ. My life would be better if I never got to know him.

How can anything penetrate your heart that is so hardened by anger and other things.

Looks like God finally managed to create a stone that is too heavy for him to lift. It's God's fault. If he had answered me when I still had hope in him, surely my heart would be different than it is now. If he never answers me and never cares and only gives me false promises, what shall my heart become then? Shall I be like, "Please give me more of your lies that I may live even more in illusion and hope that will never become true?" See, I have put way more effort into my relationship with God than those who were born in Christian families and who were brainwashed from early childhood. But as you can see, God doesn't give a s**t about it. He, even if he knows how I feel, simply doesn't care (enough) to do anything about my prayers.

In general, you are about as right about me as those who mocked Job when he lost everything. I am sure that if my situation happened to you, you wouldn't even post here. You would just visit a local spell caster right away, and if no help in two weeks, you would jump.

However, I will still pray for you and believe that misery is no way to live.

I believe that there is a better way than that, but God does not want me to have it, so all I can do in my case is try to forget it as soon as I can and then try to live a normal life by thinking as little about God as possible. Like work hard, do hobbies, find a girlfriend, whatever helps to consume my time so that I wouldn't think of God. Right now, I am busy with my master's thesis. But a nice and worldly girlfriend would probably help a lot because then I would finally have something better to think about than how I was once a victim of fraud called Christianity. And usually, happy thoughts help to forget bad memories, so I think, like a year after finding a girlfriend or so, I wouldn't even think about God. Not even during Christmas time. And then I would no longer feel miserable because the reason I feel miserable is that I think too much about God, and it makes me feel bad every time I do.