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sunshine89
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Now that I am getting closer to the Lord I am being tested in all aspects of my life. The people who I thought loved me are being little to me. Me and my boyfriend broke up; we had been together for 4 years, and it has been a constant battle of emotional abuse. Sadly, I depended on him for transportation and income, so I stayed with him for so long. I was pregnant for him years back and I had a deadly miscarriage, and today he called me fat and told me I never deserve to ever have children. All I could do was cry. I constantly worry about not being able to conceive or go a full pregnancy because of medical problems. I finally decided to leave him for good, but I don’t know how I am going to make it financially. I’ve been applying to jobs but no luck. My mom and little sister are going on and on about how I don’t have a job yet, how I gained so much weight, or look ugly in my clothes because I am not thin anymore. I cry just about every night. I do not know what to do. I have nothing, and to make it worse, I feel like nothing. I feel all alone.
