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I am putting this prayer on here once again. Did quite a while back. Am ashamed to even care about it or to be so vain. I am holding up pretty good in the aging department, but now I have crow's feet and some bagging under my eyes. I hate it. I want to get eyelift, but I can't afford it. Please pray somehow I am able to afford eyelift. If God does not want this for me, then pray none of this gets worse and that I can accept God's will for me. No woman likes to age. All women are vain. But I feel so guilty -- Is hunger and poverty in the world, and all I keep thinking about is getting eyelift. Is sick. Please pray I stop being such a vain fool. I have so much to be grateful for. I never in my life was a happy person. I don't want to get obsessed with this. I don't want to become worried about my looks. Everybody changes when they get older, everybody. Part of my problem is I know my sister Annette is getting work done on her face. (Some of it came out nice, but the silicone implant over her lip is not attractive at all. It is thrusting her whole face out like a gorilla) And do you see how catty and jealous I am of her? Anyway, that is my prayer, that I can get eyelift. The rest is like I said -- Help me to appreciate what I do have, not be so superficial, come to grips with the fact that I am getting older, and stuff on me has changed and is going to change. Help me not to be jealous of my sister because she can afford botox and stuff. I thought of it the other day -- I have never been happy my entire life. I can't let aging make me miserable. I mean, how many years do I have left? Thirty at best? Now if I pick yet a new thing to be miserable about, I will never have had a happy life. And it's really stupid. We all go into the ground and rot anyway. Also please pray God forgives me for being such a vain, self-centered human being. Amen and amen. Lamb/
