savingfaith7
Prayer Warrior
I feel so numb and hollow and tired. I hate sounding like I'm on a pity party and I'm sure that's what it is but I can't seem to get anything right and feel like I've managed to mess up all the good in my life and feel like I'm in a hole that's impossible to get out of. I get hopeful, I pray I stay positive and then I just land back in the same cycle almost like the movie groundhogs day. I don't know what's wrong with me I used to be so different. Normally I have I can come on here pull myself together and post a request or prayer but tonight I don't even know where to start. I keep reading mark 11:22 I keep thinking my faith and Jesus will save me and despite everything I know there is power in prayer and I know Jesus is there I just don't know what's wrong with me or my life or why for years things have been going this way. I'm so confused and lost and disgusted with myself for this indulgence of pity and weakness... Lord and anyone who's listening, help me guide me let me come out of this daily sometimes almost by the second I feel like I'm going to explode if things don't change other times it seems like I get by the minutes and seconds of each day simply by enduring... I'm not even sure if this makes since.please just help god- you know my heart and what's in it
