Anonymous
Beloved of All
I am not happy with my life. I am not happy with how God has treated me. I am not happy that I have never received the love and care that Lord has promised me. I am not happy that God himself does things to me for which he sends people to hell. I am not happy that God demands us to keep 10 commandments but He Himself does not. I have wanted to be treated by God as I have treated Him. I have seeked righteousness but received unrighteousness from God Himself. My youth and time is wasted. There is nothing in this world that makes me happy and neither will God make me happy. I already know that I am going to hell for being disappointed but I am also too disappointed in God to repent of being disappointed. There is no way out for me. I wish to die. I sincerely wish to die. Even if God would answer all my prayers with yes right now, I still wont want to worship Him anymore. I just want to die. I am afraid to do suicide because I dont want to go trough that much physical pain as jumping from 10th floor would cause. I wish there were option for me that the angel of death would come and take me.
