Please, you are not a failure. We all have our ups and downs. Our world leaders claim to want to help us but they hurt us. Our Authorities claim they are helping but they are not helping. We pray a different Doctor will make a difference. We pray those in charge will be kinder. Whatever your reason, know that God loves you and wants you to be happy. God gives us opportunities to be successful in something. It is up to us to find that something to be successful in. Please ask God for guidance towards that which you can feel good about. If it is volunteering a little spare time in a soup kitchen then great. Really get to know those involved in the projects. I do not mean these big wigs and celebrities that are fake about "help doing" press releases and photo ops. I mean the real people behind the scenes that work there. You will never be lonely. Are an Animal shelter volunteer work. That also is a very difficult job and a very needed job. Taking care of and helping all God's creatures, great and small. You will never be lonely and you will never feel like a failure. If you cannot bring yourself to go out and greet the people of the work then do it behind the scenes. There is much you can do to help stray animals from your own back yard, nursing them back to health and finding a home for them afterwards by contacting a local news or radio station and tell them you have a small animal you took in and have nursed back to health and are looking for a good home for the creature. I promise you there is a strong need for someone like that. Please do not be lonely, please do not feel a failure. There are so many people in a church looking for volunteers. Even the Authorities look for volunteers to help get together grassroots efforts in cleaning something up like a park. Shame, you may even be just the person to clean up your local Authorities or a system or two. There are many people and places that need you and by the way, if you need help do not be hesitant to ask for it. As horrible as our Authorities are they may be the ones you may need to help you. Is there a help hot line in your area. They usually have the number that corresponds to 1-###-hot line. Or for-help something along that line. If you cannot find it in a phone book try a church or the local library. Also local Libraries need volunteers. I pray for you in Jesus name, Amen.