Mary Lea Hankey
Disciple of Prayer
I am getting uncomfortable with the church I am going to and what the people are saying to me. I ask for prayers for guidance as I do not feel like I should be criticized or given ultimatums to be accepted as a friend or even a member of a church. I have recently been saved although I was baptized at 2 weeks of age, I did not accept Jesus as my savior until 8 years ago. The more I read the bible the more I do not understand the behavior. Its hypocritical and just mean. However, this has been the only church I have attended on a regular basis since moving here. It's been an experience like a pyramid scheme or something...very accepting and nice and now judgmental and mean. If I were a bad person as we all are sinners I would understand but these women do not know me. I sought counsel from 2 different pastors there and they were nasty and condescending. it's a wealthy white church and I don't agree with everything or fit their mold. I am not being racist; I do not want to be around racist people! I ask for guidance as to how to handle this as I do not want to lose friends but are they friends and is this really being Christian or just religion? I sought counsel from Christian friends and a pastor of another church in another part of the country and he told me I have out grown them. He said TRUTH is what is important before anything. So I ask for prayers as to where to go to now?? You on this web site has given me more insight than anyone I know here. I have had abuse that is unheard of and lived through 2 serious suicide attempts. God has delivered me and his GRACE AND MERCY has been astonishing!!! I am alive and I am healed from the blood of Jesus Christ!!! I am not rich I do not live in a huge house and I have not had a next to perfect life like these people so I deserve to be judged??? Oh help me wise ones that have been Christians longer than I and know the word and the truth!!! I ask please because I am having horrible anxiety and depression mixed with periods of light and love that are only from God!!! What do I do???
THANK YOU AND GOD BLESS AND I LOVE YOU ALL!!! I do not want to turn my back or judge but I want to be with people that seek the truth and do as Jesus taught. Being friends with and only helping like people and not the poor or the sick makes no sense to me.
THANK YOU AND GOD BLESS AND I LOVE YOU ALL!!! I do not want to turn my back or judge but I want to be with people that seek the truth and do as Jesus taught. Being friends with and only helping like people and not the poor or the sick makes no sense to me.