Elizabeth F
Humble Servant of All
I am not in a good place today and if it wasn't for my cat I would end it as I am so tired of being unwell and unhappy.
I am exhausted from one trial after the other for over six years. The worst being the sudden death of my sister who was also my best friend, carer and constant companion.
I have been taking antidepressants for about a year with no improvement and they have made me gain weight and am desperately tired all the time.
I have started seeing a Psychologist who is very nice but the sessions exhaust me and aren't helping. In fact they are making me more anxious.
I keep being told I need to leave my house and go shopping etc but apart from my mental illnesses I have physical illnesses which cause a lot of pain and can hardly walk due to neuropathy in both feet but I push myself to clean the house, make meals, feed the birds, look after my cat and plant flowers for the bees and butterflies.
I am on my own most of the time and can't watch television or listen to music because of my OCD which is impossible to explain.
I am so tired of fighting my mind and body every single second and really need fresh hope that God will make life worth living again.
Father God I come to you confessing that I am frightened and asking you to comfort me and remind me that I am relying on You and not the Psychologist, Psychiatrist, Dr, or medication etc.
Father I am so desperately unhappy and feel life isn't worth living but I know that nothing is impossible for You so please stretch out your hand to heal me in mind, body, and spirit. Please let me throw my antidepressant away and be free from its side effects. Help me God please. In Jesus' name Amen.
I am exhausted from one trial after the other for over six years. The worst being the sudden death of my sister who was also my best friend, carer and constant companion.
I have been taking antidepressants for about a year with no improvement and they have made me gain weight and am desperately tired all the time.
I have started seeing a Psychologist who is very nice but the sessions exhaust me and aren't helping. In fact they are making me more anxious.
I keep being told I need to leave my house and go shopping etc but apart from my mental illnesses I have physical illnesses which cause a lot of pain and can hardly walk due to neuropathy in both feet but I push myself to clean the house, make meals, feed the birds, look after my cat and plant flowers for the bees and butterflies.
I am on my own most of the time and can't watch television or listen to music because of my OCD which is impossible to explain.
I am so tired of fighting my mind and body every single second and really need fresh hope that God will make life worth living again.
Father God I come to you confessing that I am frightened and asking you to comfort me and remind me that I am relying on You and not the Psychologist, Psychiatrist, Dr, or medication etc.
Father I am so desperately unhappy and feel life isn't worth living but I know that nothing is impossible for You so please stretch out your hand to heal me in mind, body, and spirit. Please let me throw my antidepressant away and be free from its side effects. Help me God please. In Jesus' name Amen.