I am feeling really anxious about possible changes

[lovematters]

I am feeling really anxious about possible changes in my life that I am not sure I am ready for - or want at all.

My partner and I cannot have biological children, and I am having a very hard time letting go of that. It makes me so sad that we can't have bio kids of our own.

Adoption seems the obvious answer to my partner, and we have taken the first step in the long process.

However, I am absolutely terrified. I am questioning whether that is something I want. I really love my life as it is. I don't know if I want everything to change. I'm so scared.
Kids (bio or adopted) change everything and are of course require a lot of commitment and money, and time, and energy.

Plus - adoption adds more concerns. Will adopted kids feel like my own? Will adopted kids see us as their parents? Am I equipped to deal with all the potential complications that come with adoption?

On the flip side - if we don't adopt - will I regret not having kids later in life? That is a pretty big experience to miss out on! Will it cause problems and resentment in my relationship?
It would be nice to have family around me as I get much older.

I need help. I need clarity. I need signs. Please.

I have been praying for this decision to reveal itself to me. Somehow. A clear answer. What is right for me. My heart tells me that I am terrified and anxious. But is that just because of the enormity of this commitment. Or is it a sign that I really don't want to do it?

Please God, point me in the right direction. What is right for my life? I love my partner more than anything and do not want to do anything to jeopardize our life together.

Please provide me a clear reason why we either must or must not adopt.

 

[Isabelle10]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[fiona mcguinness]

I pray that you make the right decision for your family. There is no greater love than the love a parent feels for their child, and only a very special parent has the choice to choose their perspective child/children. Lord hear our prayers.

 

[Saraha]

Heavenly Father hear our prayers. In Jesus Name I Pray Amen

 

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