Irene Ackerman
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Dear Follower of Jesus: James 1:5-6 (CEV) says that “If any of you need wisdom, you should ask God, and it will be given to you. God is generous an...
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I am honest, I am losing all my faith in God. I am now 3 months pregnant and my baby's father still does not even want this baby. He is as happy as can be in his new relationship and all is just falling into place for him, he has the girlfriend that loves him, they are living together and is really very happy with her, they are very well off financially and emotionally support each other. While, my 2 and a half year old still cries and asks about her daddy every day and wants to know when he is coming to see her. Last night she asked me if we can pray for him so God can bring him to her, a few days ago she was crying for 30 min for him and did not want me to touch her because her daddy must fetch her. He wants nothing to do with her, doesn't even miss her. He has made it clear he wants to start a new life with the new girlfriend, one where myself, our daughter, and our unborn baby do not exist. I am struggling to keep my head above water and everything around me is falling apart. How is it that a man that just walks out on his fiancée and daughter and unborn child, a man that wishes we didn't exist finds all the happiness and gets all the blessings. What has my little princess done ever to deserve this pain and heartache and rejection. I am starting to think maybe if I am also a heartless person that just treats everyone badly, maybe then I will also be blessed with all my heart's desires like my ex. Maybe then I will be blessed with a man that will stand by me through this pregnancy and support me, hold my hand. It is starting to feel like all the men that just don't care, they are the ones that are being given all their heart's desires and the good people well they just deserve to suffer. And the innocent children that really love and need their fathers well though luck for them, because they just need to deal with the hurt and rejection. I know life is not fair but I used to believe that we serve a loving God that will look after his children, feels like he is looking out for my ex although he is the one bringing all this pain and heartache into my home and into my babies' lives. I don't feel protected at all, I don't feel loved at all. I just feel broken, and not just for me.
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Dear Follower of Jesus: James 1:5-6 (CEV) says that “If any of you need wisdom, you should ask God, and it will be given to you. God is generous an...
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1 hour ago Details
I am honest, I am losing all my faith in God. I am now 3 months pregnant and my baby's father still does not even want this baby. He is as happy as can be in his new relationship and all is just falling into place for him, he has the girlfriend that loves him, they are living together and is really very happy with her, they are very well off financially and emotionally support each other. While, my 2 and a half year old still cries and asks about her daddy every day and wants to know when he is coming to see her. Last night she asked me if we can pray for him so God can bring him to her, a few days ago she was crying for 30 min for him and did not want me to touch her because her daddy must fetch her. He wants nothing to do with her, doesn't even miss her. He has made it clear he wants to start a new life with the new girlfriend, one where myself, our daughter, and our unborn baby do not exist. I am struggling to keep my head above water and everything around me is falling apart. How is it that a man that just walks out on his fiancée and daughter and unborn child, a man that wishes we didn't exist finds all the happiness and gets all the blessings. What has my little princess done ever to deserve this pain and heartache and rejection. I am starting to think maybe if I am also a heartless person that just treats everyone badly, maybe then I will also be blessed with all my heart's desires like my ex. Maybe then I will be blessed with a man that will stand by me through this pregnancy and support me, hold my hand. It is starting to feel like all the men that just don't care, they are the ones that are being given all their heart's desires and the good people well they just deserve to suffer. And the innocent children that really love and need their fathers well though luck for them, because they just need to deal with the hurt and rejection. I know life is not fair but I used to believe that we serve a loving God that will look after his children, feels like he is looking out for my ex although he is the one bringing all this pain and heartache into my home and into my babies' lives. I don't feel protected at all, I don't feel loved at all. I just feel broken, and not just for me.
