Anonymous
Beloved of All
I am utterly depressed, hopeless, and feel like giving up. I am out of work, close to no money in my accounts, and the bills keep coming in. I have prayed for help, for employment, for anything positive, yet each new day brings the same non-results. I am physically and emotionally tired, hopeless, overwhelmed, and just want to crawl into a hole and die. I am at my breaking point, and I am seriously about to give up on this life. I am numb and emotional all at the same time. I am so tired of hustling and busting my butt to get employment, and trying everything. Simply put, I am tired of being tired. I am worn out and exhausted, and all I want to do is sleep.
I don't know what else to do. I have prayed my tail off, applied to 100 jobs in the past two months, been on a few interviews, and still...NOTHING. I'm on the doorstep to defaulting on my house and student loans. They say God never gives you more than you can handle, am I've come to the conclusion that sentiment is a myth. I am angry, frustrated, and pissed off that I am being repeatedly ignored. I don't know what supposed lesson I am being taught, it feels like I am being punished, day after day after day. I don't even feel like praying anymore will help, since my situation just keeps on getting worse. I don't know how much more I can take, before I end the madness and chaos that is my life.
I don't know what else to do. I have prayed my tail off, applied to 100 jobs in the past two months, been on a few interviews, and still...NOTHING. I'm on the doorstep to defaulting on my house and student loans. They say God never gives you more than you can handle, am I've come to the conclusion that sentiment is a myth. I am angry, frustrated, and pissed off that I am being repeatedly ignored. I don't know what supposed lesson I am being taught, it feels like I am being punished, day after day after day. I don't even feel like praying anymore will help, since my situation just keeps on getting worse. I don't know how much more I can take, before I end the madness and chaos that is my life.