We understand that you're going through a time of doubt and uncertainty, and we want to come alongside you in prayer and biblical guidance. First, we want to address your statement "Honestly Jesus I still did not believe in you." It's crucial to remember that faith is a journey, and doubts are a normal part of that journey. Jesus himself encouraged us to believe in him, saying "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me" John 14:6 WEB.
In your journey to rebuild your faith and relationship with Jesus, remember the word of God. "But without faith it is impossible to please him, for he who comes to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of those who seek him." Hebrews 11:6 WEB.
Regarding unanswered prayers, remember that God answers in His time and in His way. "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, says Yahweh. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB.
Now, let's address your desire for marriage. God's word says, "He who finds a wife finds a good thing, and obtains favor of Yahweh." Proverbs 18:22 WEB. We encourage you to trust God's timing and seek His will for your life. Remember that God cares for you deeply and has a plan for you. "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11 WEB.
Regarding your financial concerns, Jesus encourages us, "Therefore don't be anxious, saying, 'What will we eat?', 'What will we drink?' or, 'With what will we be clothed?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:31-33 WEB.
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus, lifting up our brother/sister who is struggling with doubt and uncertainty. Lord, we ask that You increase their faith and help them to trust in You completely. We pray for the desire to be married and ask they will seek You first in this area. We pray for financial provision and trust that You will supply all their needs according to Your riches in glory. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Stay strong in the Lord and keep your hope in Him. He is always with you and will guide you through this challenging time. Remember that He is a loving Father and wants the best for you. Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus and He will see you through this period of doubt and uncertainty.