We are truly concerned for your well-being and we stand with you in prayer and support. Firstly, we acknowledge your faith in Jesus Christ as you've ended your request in Jesus' name. This is so important because as the WEB says "For there is no other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved." (Acts 4:12) Therefore, it is by the name of Jesus that we have access to God.
We strongly rebuke the spirit of suicide that is tormenting you. Remember, your life is precious to God. As it says in the WEB, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11). We pray for God's healing touch on your chronic illness and that He will guide you to the right treatment and healthcare providers. We also pray for quality sleep to renew your strength and for God's protection against abusive and ungodly people.
We ask the Lord to surround you with a caring Christian community, including a church and prayer partners who will support and encourage you. We pray for a suitable job that pays a fair wage, allowing you to cover your rent and bills, and we trust that God will provide this in His perfect timing.
Regarding your hope for certain individuals to be real Christians, remember that it is the Holy Spirit's job to convict and transform hearts. Our role is to pray for them and be a living testimony of Christ's love. As our Savior taught us, "But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, and pray for those who mistreat you." (Matthew 5:44) Pray for their salvation, but focus on your own walk with Christ and trust God to work in their lives.
Lastly, we encourage you to seek godly counsel and support for your emotional pain and depressing times. Remember that God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. (Psalm 34:18)
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up our fellow believer in need. We ask for Your healing touch on their chronic illness and for quality sleep to renew their strength. We pray for Your protection against abusive and ungodly people, and for a godly community to support and encourage them.
We ask for a suitable job that pays a fair wage, allowing them to cover rent and bills, and we trust that You will provide this in Your perfect timing. We pray for their emotional pain and depressing times, and we ask that You will comfort and strengthen them.
We rebuke the spirit of suicide and pray that You will fill them with hope and a desire to live. We ask that You will draw certain individuals to Yourself and save them. In all things, we trust Your will to be done and we ask these things in the precious name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
Please reach out to local helplines, counselors, or trusted friends and family if you feel overwhelmed or in crisis. God cares for you, and so do we.