We hear the deep anguish in your heart, and we want you to know that you are not alone. The pain, shame, and despair you are feeling are heavy burdens, but there is hope in Jesus Christ, who came to bear our burdens and give us life abundantly. Your struggle with gambling addiction and the darkness of suicidal thoughts are serious, but they do not have the final say over your life. The enemy wants to destroy you, but God desires to restore you, heal you, and set you free.
First, we must address the gravity of suicidal thoughts. These are not just passing emotions—they are lies from the enemy, who seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). The Bible tells us that life is a gift from God, and He has a purpose for you, even in this moment of despair. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), and your life has value beyond measure. We rebuke those thoughts in the name of Jesus and command them to leave you. You are not without hope, and you are not without help.
Your addiction to gambling is a snare that has entangled you, but it is not stronger than the power of God. The Bible warns us about the love of money and the destruction it brings: *"For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some have been led astray from the faith in their greed, and have pierced themselves through with many sorrows"* (1 Timothy 6:10). Gambling is a form of greed and idolatry—it places your trust in chance rather than in God, who is your Provider. We must renounce this sin and turn away from it completely. Confess it to the Lord, for He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9).
You mentioned that your family is Christian and your father is a minister, yet you feel unable to talk to him. This is understandable, as shame can make us feel isolated, but we encourage you to break the silence. James 5:16 tells us, *"Confess your offenses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The insistent prayer of a righteous person is powerfully effective."* Your father, as a minister, is called to shepherd God’s people, and that includes you. He may not have all the answers, but he can walk with you in prayer and point you to the resources you need. If you feel unable to speak to him directly, consider reaching out to another trusted believer in your church or a Christian counselor who can help you navigate this journey.
Your debt is a real and pressing concern, but it is not insurmountable. Proverbs 22:7 warns, *"The borrower is servant to the lender,"* and you have become enslaved to this burden. However, God is able to provide a way out. Seek wise financial counsel from a Christian financial advisor or a ministry that specializes in debt relief. The Lord can open doors for you to manage and overcome this debt, but it will require discipline, accountability, and a willingness to live within your means. We must also guard against the temptation to return to gambling as a "quick fix"—this will only deepen the cycle of bondage.
Your family is a precious gift from God, and they need you. Your wife and children love you, and they are likely sensing the weight you carry, even if they don’t fully understand it. Ephesians 5:25 calls husbands to love their wives as Christ loved the church, and Ephesians 6:4 calls fathers to bring up their children in the training and instruction of the Lord. You cannot fulfill these roles fully while enslaved to addiction and despair. But God can restore what has been broken. He can heal your marriage, strengthen your relationship with your children, and use your testimony to bring glory to His name.
We must also address the spiritual battle you are facing. Addiction and suicidal thoughts are not just personal struggles—they are attacks from the enemy, who seeks to destroy your faith and your family. Put on the full armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-18) and stand firm against these schemes. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you (James 4:7). Surround yourself with believers who can pray for you, hold you accountable, and speak truth into your life. Do not isolate yourself—isolation is the enemy’s playground.
Now, let us pray together:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this precious brother who is struggling under the weight of addiction, debt, and despair. Lord, we know that You are near to the brokenhearted and save those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18). We ask that You would break the chains of gambling addiction in his life. Father, Your Word says that whom the Son sets free is free indeed (John 8:36). We declare that freedom over him now. Remove the desire for gambling from his heart and replace it with a hunger for Your Word and Your presence.
Lord, we rebuke the spirit of suicide and depression that has taken hold of his mind. We command it to leave in the name of Jesus. Fill him with Your peace, which surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Remind him that his life has purpose and that You are not done with him yet. Heal his mind, body, and spirit, and restore the joy of his salvation (Psalm 51:12).
Father, we ask that You would provide a way for him to overcome his debt. Give him wisdom in managing his finances and open doors for provision. Help him to trust in You as his Provider, for You know his needs before he even asks (Matthew 6:8). Surround him with godly counsel and accountability.
Lord, we pray for his family. Strengthen his marriage and his relationship with his children. Help his wife to be a source of encouragement and support, and give her wisdom in how to walk alongside him in this battle. Protect his children from the effects of this struggle and draw them closer to You.
Father, we ask that You would soften his heart to seek help from his father and other believers. Remove the shame and fear that keep him silent. Give him the courage to confess his struggles and the humility to receive help. Raise up men in his life who can mentor him, pray for him, and walk with him in this journey.
Lord, we thank You that You are a God who restores. We declare that this brother will not be defined by his past or his struggles. He is a new creation in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17), and his future is filled with hope. We ask that You would use his testimony to bring glory to Your name and to draw others to You.
We pray all of this in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above every name, the name by which we are saved and set free. Amen.
You are not alone in this battle. The Lord is with you, and so are we. Take the first step today—reach out to someone you trust, confess your struggles, and seek help. The road to freedom begins with a single step of obedience. God’s grace is sufficient for you, and His power is made perfect in weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). You are loved, you are valued, and you are not without hope.