We hear the deep pain and sorrow in your heart, and we are moved with compassion for your suffering. You have poured out your heart in honesty, and that is a good place to begin. The Lord sees your tears, your regrets, and your longing for healing. Let us first turn to the Scriptures, for they hold the truth that will set you free.
You have asked why people have treated you with neglect and unkindness, and why you feel so alone. The Bible reminds us that we live in a fallen world where sin has broken relationships, and people often act out of their own brokenness rather than out of what you may have done or not done. Jesus warned us, *"In the world you have oppression; but cheer up! I have overcome the world."* (John 16:33, WEB). Your pain is real, but it does not have to define you. The Lord wants to heal your heart and show you that your worth is not found in how others treat you, but in how He sees you—a beloved child, redeemed by His blood.
You have also expressed a desire for those who hurt you to apologize, and we understand that longing for justice and closure. However, the Lord calls us to release our bitterness, even if we never receive the apology we hope for. Ephesians 4:31-32 says, *"Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you."* Forgiveness is not excusing what was done to you; it is releasing the hold that their actions have over your heart. The Lord knows the pain of betrayal and neglect, yet He chose to forgive us while we were still sinners (Romans 5:8). He will give you the strength to do the same.
You mentioned feeling like a failure, especially in guiding your children spiritually. But the Lord does not call us to be perfect—He calls us to be faithful. Proverbs 22:6 encourages us, *"Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not depart from it."* It is never too late to pray for your children and their spouses (or future spouses), asking the Lord to draw them into a deep, personal relationship with Him. You can still model faith, repentance, and trust in Christ, showing them that even in our weaknesses, God is strong.
We must also address something important: you mentioned praying for your children and their *"partners."* The Bible is clear that marriage is a sacred covenant between one man and one woman (Genesis 2:24, Matthew 19:4-6). If your children are in relationships outside of God’s design, we must pray for their repentance and alignment with His Word. Let us pray that the Lord would open their eyes to His truth and lead them into godly marriages that honor Him. The same applies to any relationships in your own life—whether past or present. If there has been fornication, adultery, or any sexual sin, the Lord calls us to repentance and purity. 1 Corinthians 6:18-20 says, *"Flee sexual immorality! 'Every sin that a man does is outside the body,' but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. Or don’t you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s."*
You also prayed for someone (indicated by "###") during surgery. We will lift this person up to the Lord, asking for His healing hand and peace to surround them. And we rejoice that you acknowledged Jesus in your prayer, for it is only through His name that we have access to the Father. *"There is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus"* (1 Timothy 2:5, WEB). If you have not already, we encourage you to surrender your life fully to Him, confessing Him as Lord and Savior. Romans 10:9-10 says, *"that if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made resulting in salvation."* There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1). If you have strayed or felt distant from Him, now is the time to return. He is faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9).
As for finding a church home, we praise God for this desire! Hebrews 10:24-25 urges us, *"Let’s consider how to provoke one another to love and good works, not forsaking our own assembling together, as the custom of some is, but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching."* Ask the Lord to lead you to a Bible-believing church where the Word of God is preached boldly, where there is genuine fellowship, and where you can grow in your faith. Do not be afraid to visit different churches and seek the Lord’s guidance in this. He will direct your steps.
Now, let us pray together for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our sister to You, knowing that You see her pain, her regrets, and her longing for healing. Lord, she has carried this burden for too long, and we ask that You would break the chains of bitterness, fear, and loneliness that have bound her heart. Wash her clean with the blood of Jesus and fill her with Your peace that surpasses all understanding. Father, reveal to her any areas of unrepentant sin, and give her the courage to turn away from them. If she has harbored resentment, anger, or unforgiveness, we ask that You would soften her heart and help her to release these weights to You.
Lord, she has asked why she has been treated with neglect and unkindness. Comfort her with the truth that her worth is found in You alone. Remind her that even when others fail her, You never will. Psalm 27:10 says, *"When my father and my mother forsake me, then Yahweh will take me up."* Be her refuge, her strength, and her ever-present help in trouble.
Father, she has confessed her sins and her negative thoughts toward those who have wronged her. We ask that You would cleanse her mind and heart, replacing every hurtful thought with Your truth. Help her to forgive as You have forgiven her. If there are relationships in her life that are not aligned with Your Word—whether her own or her children’s—we pray for conviction, repentance, and restoration according to Your will. Lead them into godly marriages that honor You.
We pray for the person undergoing surgery, whose name You know. Lord, be their healer and comforter. Guide the hands of the medical team and grant them wisdom. Surround this person with Your peace and bring them to a full recovery for Your glory.
Father, our sister has expressed a desire to find a church home. Lead her to a body of believers where she can grow in faith, find community, and serve You wholeheartedly. Open doors for her to connect with others who will encourage her and hold her accountable in love.
Finally, Lord, we ask that You would fill the emptiness in her heart with Your presence. Remove the fear and loneliness and replace them with Your perfect love, which casts out all fear (1 John 4:18). Give her the strength to move forward, trusting You with her past, present, and future. May she find her identity in Christ alone and walk in the freedom and joy that comes from knowing Him.
We pray all these things in the mighty and holy name of Jesus, our Savior and Redeemer. Amen.
We encourage you to spend time in the Word of God daily, even if it is just a few verses. Let His truth renew your mind and heal your heart. Psalm 119:105 says, *"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path."* If you feel overwhelmed, start with the Gospels (Matthew, Mark, Luke, John) and let the life of Jesus speak to you. Also, consider memorizing Scriptures that combat the lies you have believed about yourself. For example:
- *"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."* (Philippians 4:13)
- *"The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart and saves those who have a crushed spirit."* (Psalm 34:18)
- *"Cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you."* (1 Peter 5:7)
You are not alone in this journey. The Lord is with you, and we are standing with you in prayer. Keep seeking Him, and He will restore what the locusts have eaten (Joel 2:25). Trust in His timing and His goodness, even when it is hard to see. He is working all things together for your good (Romans 8:28).
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
