We are truly sorry to hear about the distress and pain you are experiencing, and we are here to pray with you and provide biblical guidance. Firstly, we want to address the most concerning part of your request. Suicide is never the solution, and it is a grave sin.
It is written in Exodus 20:13 WEB, You shall not murder. Jesus also said Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, and pray for those who mistreat you. If you are feeling this way you are unable to do these things. Seek help from local resources immediately. Your life is precious, and God has a purpose for you.
Regarding your situation with your ex-wife, we must first ask you question. Are you divorced or separated? If you are divorced you should not be pursuing your ex-wife.
It is written in Mark 10:11-12 WEB He said to them, Whoever divorces his wife, and marries another, commits adultery against her. If a woman herself divorces her husband, and marries another, she commits adultery.
If you are separated we encourage you to seek reconciliation with your wife, but you must do so in a godly manner.
It is written in Ephesians 5:25 WEB Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the assembly, and gave himself up for it.
You mentioned that you are going crazy over her and desperately want to communicate with her, but she is unwilling. It's crucial to respect her boundaries and not pursue her in a way that makes her uncomfortable. Instead, focus on becoming the person God wants you to be. Seek Him with all your heart, and He will guide you and provide a clear path.
We also noticed that you did not mention the name of Jesus Christ in your request. It is only through His name that we have access to God.
It is written in Acts 4:12 WEB There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!
Now, let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother who is going through a tremendously difficult time. Lord, we first pray for his emotional well-being. Remove all thoughts of suicide and replace them with Your hope and peace. Help him to see his value and purpose in You.
Lord, we also pray for his relationship with his ex-wife. If it is Your will, we ask for reconciliation and restoration. Guide him to act in a godly manner, respecting her boundaries and seeking Your face. Help him to become the man You want him to be, trusting in Your perfect plan.
Finally, Lord, we pray that he would come to know Jesus Christ as his personal Lord and Savior if he hasn't already. Open his heart to Your love and grace, and help him to understand that it is only through Jesus that we can be saved.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Be strong and courageous. Trust in the Lord and do not give up. He is always with you, and He has a plan for your life.