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I'm desperate for things in my life to change. I'm tired of the struggle and uphill fight. I've never been able to get a real break in life. I’m 45 years old and have no retirement saved. I have never been in a position to save for my future. I have literally lived day to day. I have cerebral palsy and as I age, my legs get worse. I’m not sure if I will be able to work until the retirement age, so I’m very afraid for my future. Social security benefits and/or disability aren’t enough for retirement. Oh, I can’t even get disability because I’m not considered disabled, which is a whole other story. I was homeless almost two years ago and don’t want to go through it again. I went back to school thinking it would put me in a better financial position. Well, I can’t find a job making more than $10 an hour. This is the same pay I was making before I was a college graduate five years ago. However, now I have college loans that I can’t pay, and a college degree that isn’t worth the paper it’s written on. I keep praying and loving God, but things never change. It's a never ending circle. I’m at the point where I don’t even want to work. I'm so depressed that I don’t go to work or leave my house. This is starting to happen regularly. The depression is too great, and I’m too tired. I’m starting to hate myself and feel like a failure. I feel like God has abandoned me. I know I don’t deserve prayer, please pray for me anyway. I need total peace, security and happiness in my life. God has to rescue me because I can’t take anymore.
