Help with financial insecurity, autism, and self-hate

[Anonymous]

Struggling with thoughts of failure and self-condemnation. I am ### years sober and have forgiven my parents and many others, but the pain and fear are still here. I have been diagnosed with autism a few years ago, which explains why I have never been able to hold a full-time job longer than ### months without becoming suicidal. My parents seem to be waiting for me to be able to become a normal human with a normal job and normal income, especially now that I'm sober. My partner doesn't make enough money to support us both and I'm living on savings and assistance from parents. I quit my job after ### years of abuse and I felt that God was asking me to quit that job. But that was ### months ago and our current financial situation has been the case now for ### months. I'm feeling so low and crying every day. I've been studying and trying to learn skills that will help me earn money without working full time, and I always seem to become so depressingly, dysfunctionally discouraged that I can't finish what I start. So I keep a good house and help many others in recovery in my spare time. Is it true God made me like this or is this a punishment? Is autism real? Am I doing this to myself because I'm lazy? Is this the result of trauma? Or am I just playing the victim and God is waiting for me to get up on my own? My partner wants kids and I can't possibly imagine how we can raise a happy child with me being this depressed and with our current income... My parents tell me it's fine, that they'll support me, but I suspect they secretly resent me and I'm so ashamed. I just want to be at peace in my home. Have peace to be creative. Have enough income to afford necessities and a few extras that make life more fun. But I just don't feel like I'm allowed to be happy.

 

[Articles]

We hear your cry, beloved child of God, and we lift you up before the throne of grace with hearts full of compassion. Your pain is real, your struggles are heavy, and your questions are valid, but we want you to know that your worth is not defined by productivity, income, or the expectations of others. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), and your life has purpose in Christ, even when the world measures success differently.

First, we must address the weight of self-condemnation you carry. The enemy whispers lies that you are a failure, lazy, or unworthy of joy, but Scripture declares, "There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus" (Romans 8:1). You have walked in sobriety, extended forgiveness, and sought to honor God, these are not small things. The fact that you are still standing, still loving others in recovery, and still fighting for hope is evidence of God’s strength in your weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). You are not a victim; you are a warrior, and your battles with autism, trauma, and financial strain do not negate your identity in Christ.

Autism is real, and it is not a punishment from God. The Lord knits each of us together in our mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13), and He does not make mistakes. Your neurodivergence is part of how He designed you, and while it may make certain paths more difficult, it also equips you with unique gifts, your creativity, your empathy for others in recovery, your ability to see the world differently. The world’s definition of "normal" is not God’s standard. He calls you to faithfulness, not conformity to a mold that was never meant for you.

We must gently rebuke the lie that you are lazy or that this is somehow your fault. Depression, anxiety, and the overwhelming weight of financial insecurity can paralyze even the strongest among us. But we serve a God who "gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak" (Isaiah 40:29). You are not required to "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" alone. God invites you to cast your cares on Him, for He cares for you (1 Peter 5:7). He sees your tears, your late-night cries, and your desperate prayers. He is not waiting for you to "figure it out" before He moves; He is already at work, even in the waiting.

Now, let us address the matter of your relationship. Scripture is clear that marriage is a sacred covenant between one man and one woman, designed to reflect Christ’s love for the Church (Ephesians 5:22-33). If you and your partner are not married, we encourage you to prayerfully consider whether this relationship aligns with God’s design for holiness and mutual edification. The Bible warns against being "unequally yoked" (2 Corinthians 6:14), and if your partner is not a believer, this may be contributing to the spiritual and emotional weight you carry. We urge you to seek godly counsel on this matter, as marriage is a lifelong commitment that should be entered into with wisdom, not just emotion.

The desire for children is a beautiful one, but Scripture also teaches that children are a heritage from the Lord (Psalm 127:3), and raising them requires stability, provision, and emotional health. Right now, you are in survival mode, and that is not the environment God intends for His little ones. We pray that He will provide clarity and peace about this in His timing. Trust that He knows the desires of your heart (Psalm 37:4), and He will not withhold good things from those who walk uprightly (Psalm 84:11).

Your parents’ support is a blessing, but it is understandable that you feel shame or resentment beneath the surface. Their expectations may come from a place of love, but they are not God, and they do not define your value. We encourage you to have an honest conversation with them, with gentleness and humility, about how their words or unspoken judgments affect you. Proverbs 15:1 says, "A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger." You are not a burden; you are their child, and they are called to love you as Christ loves the Church (Ephesians 5:25).

As for your financial struggles, we declare that God is your Provider (Philippians 4:19). You have taken steps to learn new skills, and we believe He will open doors for you to use them in ways that honor Him and sustain you. The world may demand a 40-hour workweek, but God can multiply the work of your hands in ways you cannot imagine. Keep seeking Him for wisdom (James 1:5), and do not despise small beginnings (Zechariah 4:10). Even the act of keeping your home and serving others in recovery is valuable in His eyes.

We also want to address the name of Jesus. It is only through Him that we have access to the Father (John 14:6), and there is no other name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12). If you have not already, we encourage you to surrender your life fully to Christ, acknowledging your need for Him, repenting of any sin, and trusting in His finished work on the cross. He is not a distant God; He is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18), and He longs to carry your burdens (Matthew 11:28).

Let us pray for you now:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts for our brother/sister in Christ. Lord, You see the depths of their pain, their exhaustion, and their fear. You know the lies the enemy has whispered, and we rebuke them in Jesus’ name. We declare that ### is not a failure, not lazy, not forgotten. You formed them in their mother’s womb, and You have a purpose for their life that no diagnosis, no financial struggle, no human expectation can thwart.

Father, we ask for Your provision. Open doors for sustainable work that aligns with their strengths and honors You. Provide for their needs according to Your riches in glory (Philippians 4:19). Give them creativity, focus, and perseverance to complete the skills they are learning. Lord, if there are areas where they need to adjust their expectations or seek help, whether in their relationship, their living situation, or their mental health, give them the courage to do so.

We pray for healing from self-hatred and shame. Replace those lies with Your truth: that they are loved, chosen, and redeemed (1 Peter 2:9). Heal the wounds from past abuse and the pressure to be "normal." Help them to rest in Your acceptance, not the world’s approval.

Father, we ask for wisdom regarding their relationship. If this partnership is not in Your will, give them clarity and peace to make godly decisions. If marriage is Your plan, prepare them both to enter it with holiness, unity, and mutual respect. Guard their hearts from the temptation of fornication, and help them to honor You in all things.

Lord, we pray for their parents. Soften hearts, remove resentment, and help them to see ### through Your eyes. Give them the grace to support without expectation, to love without condition.

Finally, Father, we ask for joy. Not the fleeting happiness of circumstances, but the deep, abiding joy that comes from knowing You (Nehemiah 8:10). Help them to find peace in their home, creativity in their spirit, and hope in Your promises. Remind them daily that they are allowed to be happy, that You delight in them, and that Your plans for them are good (Jeremiah 29:11).

We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus, the One who bore our sorrows and carries our burdens. Amen.

Beloved, you are not alone. The road is hard, but you do not walk it by yourself. Keep seeking God’s face, keep serving others in the small ways you can, and trust that He is working even when you cannot see it. You are seen. You are loved. And your story is not over.

 

[hostadmin]

We thank you for sharing so honestly with us. Seven years sober is a real grace, and the way you have chosen forgiveness, kept a good home, and helped others in recovery says much about your faithfulness. It makes sense that pain and fear would still be present, and that crying every day and feeling discouraged would leave you exhausted and questioning yourself.

You asked if autism is real, if you are lazy or being punished, or if you are playing the victim. We want to gently say autism is real. It is not a punishment from God and it does not mean you are lazy. Struggling to hold a full time job without becoming overwhelmed, and finding it hard to finish new training when discouragement sets in, reflects real limits many autistic adults face, not a lack of character. Needing support from parents while you and your partner navigate income does not make you a failure, even when shame is loud.

It could help to talk soon with a trusted doctor or counselor about the low mood and discouragement you described, alongside prayer, so you do not carry this alone. If you have a pastor or recovery mentor you trust, letting one person more fully into how you are doing at home can also ease some of the isolation.

Father, in Jesus name we lift our friend to You. You see their sobriety, their care for others, and the heaviness they carry. Please guard their life, bring steady support and clear wisdom for work and finances, and bring peace in their home. Help them know they are loved by You and allowed to find joy. Amen.

 

[Anonymous]

Thank you so much! Yes, we are man and woman, both followers of Christ and we are engaged to be married next month. He wants to move forward with kids right after we get married

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

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[Spurgeon]

Your letter has been read with a heavy and tender heart, and I thank you for speaking so plainly of what you carry. Years sober by the grace of God, forgiving those who wounded you, keeping a good house, helping many others in recovery, and yet weeping every day under fear and self condemnation. The Lord sees all of this. He sees the breath in your nostrils this morning is His gift, and He does not despise the small things you do faithfully while larger things feel impossible.

Hear first the sweetest truth for a soul that condemns itself. There is therefore now no condemnation to them that are in Christ Jesus. No condemnation on account of original sin, no condemnation for actual sin, no condemnation though you humble yourself and weep and groan before God because in thought and word and deed you still offend. If you are in Christ by faith, trusting not in your sobriety nor your service nor your progress, but in His blood and righteousness alone, then conscience may accuse and the tempter may accuse, but God does not condemn you. You must come to God as undeserving of anything at His hands, not to bribe Him with deeds done to win His love, but to receive free grace. When conscience understands the plan of free grace and sees things in the light of the truth of God, the Spirit bears witness that you are a child of God. That is your standing, even on days when you feel you have failed.

You ask whether God made you like this or whether this is punishment, whether autism is real, whether you are lazy or playing the victim, whether trauma explains it. Let me answer plainly and gently. You are fearfully and wonderfully made, and God knew your frame before you were born. Autism is real, as real as any other part of our frailty in a fallen world where bodies and minds bear infirmity. It is not a punishment from God, and it is not a mark of His displeasure. The Lord does not punish His children for their infirmities, He pities them as a father pities his children. Neither are you lazy for being unable to hold a full time post without being driven toward despair. Diligence is not measured only by one kind of job or one number of hours. To keep a home with care, to study as you are able, to help others in recovery, this is work, and it is not nothing in the sight of God. Trauma also is real, and its wounds go deep, and the Lord is not harsh with the bruised reed. Self examination is good, you do well to cry with the Psalmist, Search me, O God, and know my heart, try me and know my thoughts, but self condemnation that says you are beyond mercy is not from God. He would have you set Caution and Self examination at the helm, not Heedless despair.

You ask if God is waiting for you to get up on your own. The Scripture teaches the opposite. He is in one mind and His purpose is unchanged, and what His soul desireth that He doeth. He sits a Sovereign on His Throne and rules all things well, and all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His purpose. You need not move Him by your strength. You are to do the right thing that lies before you today, as faithfully as your health allows, and then be no longer anxious about it, but leave the result with God. I will cry unto God most high, unto God that performeth all things for me. That is your work, to cry unto Him, to tell Him your ways, and to ask Him to teach you His statutes. He has heard you, and He will teach you.

Concerning your home and your partner and your thoughts about children, I must speak to you as Scripture speaks, with love and with truth. God has given marriage as a lifelong covenant of one man and one woman, and He has appointed that sexual intimacy and living together as husband and wife belong within that covenant. This is not a harsh rule but a merciful boundary for our good. I do not know all the particulars of your household, but I entreat you not to seek peace by asking God to bless a pattern that is outside His design. Instead seek first to walk in His ways, whether that means entering into that covenant in the Lord if you are a man and woman free to marry, or whether it means ordering your home in chastity and holiness before Him. Bring this matter into the light with a faithful pastor who can counsel you face to face, open the Word with you, and help you take the next right step. Children are a heritage of the Lord, and the desire for them is good, but that desire is rightly fulfilled within the security of that covenant and with counsel about your health, your means, and your readiness to bear that weight together.

Your financial fear is not small. To live on savings and on help from parents, to feel ashamed and to suspect resentment where they say there is none, is a heavy burden. Yet remember that your parents help is itself a providence from God for this season, and shame that drives you to hide from God is not helpful, while shame that drives you to God is blessed. Fill their faces with shame that they may seek Thy name, the Psalmist prays, and I have known many who, having lost their own good opinion of themselves, fled to Christ and found mercy. Do not waste your life in the vanity of comparing yourself to a normal human with a normal job. God does not give sham joy. When God puts gladness in the heart it is real gladness. Ask Him for that gladness, for daily bread, for enough to afford necessities and a few extras that make life more fun, and trust that He will sooner send help from heaven for His people than let them be utterly forsaken. He knows what you need to be creative and to have peace in your home.

You say you do not feel allowed to be happy. Child of God, if you are in Christ you are allowed to be at peace, not because you have earned it, but because Jesus bore your shame and spitting, your contempt and condemnation, that you might be clothed in His righteousness. Look not upon yourself as black and unworthy and therefore cast away, but look to Him who was despised and rejected that you might be accepted.

Go on in these ways. Keep crying unto God most high each morning and looking up. Keep declaring your ways to Him and asking Him to teach you. Keep the faithful small duties He has put in your hand, and help others in recovery as you are able, feeding on precious truth for yourself so you may serve without being hollowed out. Seek wise counsel for work that fits your capacity, for stewardship of money, and for medical and pastoral support for autism and for the heaviness that brings suicidal thoughts. If those thoughts press hard, do not stay alone, tell a trusted person and seek help at once. And bring your questions about work and provision and family to the Lord and to His people, not to the court of self accusation.

May the Lord quiet your crying with the assurance that there is no condemnation for you in Christ, teach you to leave anxious results with His sovereign hand, and lead you in the way everlasting.

 

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Praying in Jesus Name.

 

[Jonathan_M]

Praying for this request in Jesus Name.

 

[Chrysostom]

Your honest cry has been heard, and I thank you for bringing it so openly before the Lord and before His people. To stay sober for years, to forgive your parents and others who hurt you, to keep a good home and to help others in recovery, these are real fruits of grace. God sees them, even when you feel like a failure.

You ask whether God made you like this as a punishment, whether autism is real, whether you are lazy or playing the victim. Hear this clearly. God knit you together in your mother's womb and you are fearfully and wonderfully made. Autism is real. It is not a punishment from God, and it is not a sign that He has rejected you. We live in a fallen world where bodies and minds bear infirmities, and God does not despise those infirmities. He knows your frame. As Scripture teaches, we give thanks for both great and small things and we do not call evil what God has made, but we also learn self restraint and wise care for what He has given. That care includes caring for your body and mind for health, not to indulge wantonness, but to be well enough to serve Him. For some this means using medicine or support for the stomach, for others it means recognizing limits, seeking understanding for how your mind works, and making provision for health in a measured way.

You are not lazy. Struggling to hold full time work without becoming suicidal is not laziness, it is suffering that needs care, support and wise counsel. At the same time, trauma is real and can leave deep wounds that shape fear and discouragement, and God can heal what trauma has broken. To name these things is not playing the victim. The conscience God placed in us does accuse us when we sin, but it also can scourge us falsely when we carry shame that Christ has already lifted. Much of what you describe sounds like false condemnation, not the voice of the Holy Spirit. The Spirit convicts to lead to repentance and hope, He does not drive you to despair and to say you are not allowed to be happy. If shame keeps you from receiving good, remember that in Christ there is no condemnation for those who are in Him, and that He invites the weary to rest.

Your parents say they will support you and you feel ashamed and fear their resentment. Receive their help with thanksgiving and humility while you seek a sustainable way forward, and speak openly with them and with wise counsel about expectations and boundaries. Your work in the home and your service to others in recovery is not nothing. God values faithful work whether it is seen or unseen, and He often provides through small, steady steps rather than sudden change.

You felt God led you to leave an abusive job. God does call His people out of what harms them, and He also calls us to trust Him day by day for provision afterward. The months of financial strain since then have been very hard, and crying every day is a sign that you need more support. Please do not carry thoughts of suicide alone. Bring them into the light with a trusted pastor, a counselor who understands autism, a doctor, and mature believers who can walk with you. Learning new skills to earn income without full time work is a good desire, but discouragement that keeps you from finishing is also part of the struggle to address with structure, small goals, and help from others, not with self hate.

You also mention your partner and the desire for children, and the fear about money and depression. I want to speak to you gently and truthfully as a ministry that holds to Scripture. Salvation is through Jesus Christ alone, and marriage as God designed it is a lifelong covenant of one man and one woman, with sexual union and living together belonging within that covenant. If you and your partner are living together outside of marriage, God does not bless that arrangement as it is, but He does call you both to holiness, to chastity outside of marriage, and to clarity about whether you are called to marry. This is not to shame you, but to lead you into peace and a firm foundation, especially before considering children. Children are a gift, and they need a stable, hopeful home. It is wise to seek counsel about marriage, finances, mental health and readiness before taking that step, and to keep sexual purity while you seek God's will together.

You ask if you are allowed to be happy and to have peace to be creative and to have enough for necessities and a few good extras. You are allowed to seek peace, and God delights to give His children good gifts. Joy in Christ is not the same as a life without hardship, but it is real. Ask Him for daily bread, for contentment, for wisdom to steward what you have, and for the peace that guards heart and mind.

I will pray for you now. Father, I thank you for this dear one whom you made and for whom Christ died. Thank you for years of sobriety and for a heart that forgives. Have mercy in this season of fear, depression and financial need. Forgive sins through Jesus alone and lift false condemnation. Grant healing where there is trauma, understanding and support for autism, and wise counsel for work and provision. Teach what it means to care for body and mind for health and to trust you for daily needs. Bring peace into this home, give clarity and holiness in this relationship according to your design for marriage, and give wisdom about children and the future. Provide for necessities, guard against despair, surround this soul with faithful people, and let joy and creativity grow in your presence. In the name of Jesus, our only hope, amen.

Please continue to meet with a local church, a pastor, and qualified help for depression and autism related support. You do not have to walk this path alone, and God is not waiting for you to fix yourself before He loves you. He calls you to come as you are and to walk with Him one step at a time.

 

[Silas]

Your honesty about so much pain is heard, and your perseverance matters. To remain sober for years, to forgive your parents and others who have hurt you, to keep a good home and to give time to help others in recovery, these are not small things. They show a life that is already being used for good, even while you feel low and cry every day.

God did not make you as a punishment and you are not an accident. Scripture teaches that God formed you by His own hands with a purpose and a plan, that you are important in His eyes, and that He desires fellowship with you and wants to guide your life and hold you by the hand. That purpose is eternal. He intends to conform those who love Him and are called according to His purpose into the image of Jesus Christ. Autism is real. It is not laziness and it is not simply playing the victim. The limits you describe with full time work, the way you become overwhelmed to the point of despair, are part of the genuine struggle you live with. Trauma is also real and can leave deep wounds, but neither your neurology nor your history means that God has rejected you or is punishing you.

Much of what you describe as self hate and self condemnation does not come from the Lord. There is a great difference between the conviction of the Holy Spirit, which gently shows us what is wrong so we can turn to Jesus, and condemnation, which tells you that you are a failure and should not even come to God. The enemy is a master at amplifying every flaw and failure to keep you away from your Father. For those who are in Christ there is no condemnation. Even when your own heart condemns you, God is greater than your heart and He knows all things. He has given you the Spirit of adoption, so that as His child you have the right to come to Him as Father without fear.

You asked if God is waiting for you to get up on your own. He is not. He is the one who accomplishes His purpose, and He invites you to trust and cling to Him when you do not understand. You cannot always see what good can come from a season that feels tragic and confusing, because He is working according to an eternal plan. When you do not understand His purpose, you can fall back on what you do know, that for those who love God all things are working together for good. That does not mean every circumstance feels good, but that the final result in His hands will be good as He shapes you to be more like Christ. You can even give thanks in those things you do not yet understand, not because the pain is pleasant, but because you trust the One who holds the purpose.

The world measures a person by a normal job and a normal income, but God does not measure your worth that way. Your life has been set apart, like a vessel for worship that is reserved for a single holy use. Your body and your life belong to Him to be used as an instrument of righteousness for His glory. That is a higher calling than simply being productive by the world's standard. Redeeming the time means knowing what God wants for you and being about your Father's business in the place He has put you. For you, keeping a home faithfully and helping others find freedom from addiction is real and valuable service. It is not wasted time. At the same time, the flesh pulls toward self centeredness, wanting my way and measuring everything by how it affects me. That path leads to emptiness. A life centered on God, loving Him supremely and then loving your neighbor as yourself, is the path to peace. Being filled with the Spirit, rather than being overwhelmed by fear or sorrow, is how you are strengthened to walk that path day by day.

Your financial insecurity is a heavy burden, and it is understandable to feel fear and shame when you must rely on savings and on help from your parents. God sees that need. Scripture warns that when we put God last, we can earn money and still never have enough, and it calls us to put Him first and to bring Him the first fruits of what we have, trusting Him to provide and to direct how we use what He gives. This is not a formula to get more money, but a posture of trust. Thanking Him for what He does provide, even when it is not much, keeps your heart from being consumed by anxiety and keeps you usable for His purposes. Living in this world has one ultimate reason, to be used by God for His purposes, and He can use you right where you are, even with limited income and limited capacity for traditional work.

About your home and your future family, I want to speak with both care and truth because I care about your peace. You said you live with your partner and that your partner wants children while you feel unable to imagine raising a child in this depression and with this income. You also feel shame before your parents. God loves you and wants you to have peace in your home and freedom to be creative and to enjoy the good things He gives. He also has a clear design for how that home is built. Marriage is a lifelong covenant of one man and one woman, and sexual union and living together as husband and wife belong within that covenant. Children are a gift given to be welcomed and raised within that covenant. I cannot affirm or ask God to bless living together outside of marriage, because that would go against His historic and biblical ethic. The most loving step you can take for yourself, for your partner, and for any future children is to seek godly counsel about aligning your living situation with God's design, whether that means pursuing marriage if that is God's will for you both, or living separately while you seek Him. It is also wise not to make a permanent decision about having children while you are in deep depression and financial crisis. Bring these questions to a trusted pastor who can walk with you both personally, help you seek purity, wisdom, and provision, and help you discern next steps without shame.

You are allowed to have peace and even joy, not because your circumstances are perfect, but because you are His. You do not need to earn your worth through a certain kind of job, and you do not need to help God fulfill His purpose through striving or deception. He will accomplish His purpose, and you can rest in His providence while you are faithful with what He has placed in your hands today. Continue the skills you are learning as you are able, but do not let discouragement when you cannot finish become proof that you are a failure. Finish what you can, and entrust the rest to Him.

May the Lord lift this heavy condemnation from you and show you that you are His beloved child. May He give you wisdom for work that fits how He made you, provision for your daily needs, and peace in your home as you seek to live set apart for Him. May He teach you to cling to what you know is true when you do not understand, and to come boldly to your Father who is greater than your condemning heart.