cesar00
Banned
Dear Jesus, You know me, You know my heart, my mind, my past , present and future. You know where I come from and only You knw where I am going. Dear Jesus I stand before You, I bare my soul to You. You know Dear Jesus, I have no money, there is no food at my home for me and my family, my car broke down today, I cannot fix it, I now have no means of transport. In fact I borrowed money against it two months ago and I have not been able to return this money, I have been given an ultimatum, pay on Monday or loose the car for good.
I have not been able to pay my daughters' schools, I have not been able to pay for my boys college tuitions, they havent been able to find jobs either. I lost my job a long time ago and have nor been able to get one that pays enough to fulfill my families needs. Services are due too, electricity, water, cable, all of them are due and are about to be shut down.
I now believe that the deal for the business was brought to us by the devil, it has come t a standstill and I believe we will not be closing it. Everything moved along fine, doors opened, problems were solved, and all of a sudden, when all is ready the deal fell through, after we had spent enormous amounts of time and all the money we had preparing documents and following the loan procedures.
Sunday is Isabella's birthday, she will be 18, I do not have money to even buy her a birthday cake, my other daughter, Victoria wanted to play soccer in the school little league, I was not able to buy her a uniform for it. Neither of us have seen a dentist or doctor for more than two years, both Isabella and my wife Victoria have medical conditions that need periodic adjustments, these havent been done, in fact there have been times when they have gone without their medication because we could not buy it. I am not complaining Dear Jesus, no I am not complaining, all I am doing is laying out the facts, I am talking to You and to myself, I wonder at my wife's patience and love for staying with me through all this ordeal, she could, she should have left a long time ago. I see Your hand in this Dear Jesus , in her patience, in her never loosing hope, in her trying to keep our family together.
My boys have turned to alcohol and mariguana, they hang out in their room all day, and things get worst every time they return from the street after searching for jobs, after meeting their friends who have moved ahead in college while they are standing on the sidelines unable to continue with their dreams, unable to move forward in their lives. They are in Your hands Jesus, touch them, show them Your love and care for them, al I can do is pray for their well being, for them not loosing hope in themselves, for they turned their backs on You a long time ago.
Lord I am nowhere, I am nothing, I am lost, I believed this business would solve our economical problems and You would heal the wounds left behind and all would be good, like it once was. Dear Jesus, I stand before You, with a bleeding heart, my soul is open to You, I am completely empty of purpose, direction, support.You know it is not just a matter of money, we have been short before and You have solved our problems, today we stand before You with nothing. No money, no jobs, no business, no food, no nothing. THANK YOU JESUS, THANK YOU, for this situation gives me the oportunity to love You more, to get closer to You, to bare my soul to You and Your warriors for they are my brothers and sisters, they are my guardian angels, they show me love and care, they worry for me and my family.
Dear Jesus, the chips are down, there is no other way to go than up, and here I stand my Lord, Your servant and slave waiting for You to fulfill Your promises, waiting for You to touch me and my family with the tip of Your finger and make it all well, here we stand waiting for Your time, for Your will. Nothing will separate me from You My Jesus, nothing will make me doubt You or Your ways. I stand strong and as always finish this prayer to You with the windows of my sou open, waiting for You and Your blessings, today, tomorrow, it does not matter, I know You wil come. THANK YOU JESUS IN YOU WE TRUST, THANK YOU PRAYER WARRIORS FR YOUR CARE AND PRAYERS FOR MYSELF AND MY FAMILY.
I have not been able to pay my daughters' schools, I have not been able to pay for my boys college tuitions, they havent been able to find jobs either. I lost my job a long time ago and have nor been able to get one that pays enough to fulfill my families needs. Services are due too, electricity, water, cable, all of them are due and are about to be shut down.
I now believe that the deal for the business was brought to us by the devil, it has come t a standstill and I believe we will not be closing it. Everything moved along fine, doors opened, problems were solved, and all of a sudden, when all is ready the deal fell through, after we had spent enormous amounts of time and all the money we had preparing documents and following the loan procedures.
Sunday is Isabella's birthday, she will be 18, I do not have money to even buy her a birthday cake, my other daughter, Victoria wanted to play soccer in the school little league, I was not able to buy her a uniform for it. Neither of us have seen a dentist or doctor for more than two years, both Isabella and my wife Victoria have medical conditions that need periodic adjustments, these havent been done, in fact there have been times when they have gone without their medication because we could not buy it. I am not complaining Dear Jesus, no I am not complaining, all I am doing is laying out the facts, I am talking to You and to myself, I wonder at my wife's patience and love for staying with me through all this ordeal, she could, she should have left a long time ago. I see Your hand in this Dear Jesus , in her patience, in her never loosing hope, in her trying to keep our family together.
My boys have turned to alcohol and mariguana, they hang out in their room all day, and things get worst every time they return from the street after searching for jobs, after meeting their friends who have moved ahead in college while they are standing on the sidelines unable to continue with their dreams, unable to move forward in their lives. They are in Your hands Jesus, touch them, show them Your love and care for them, al I can do is pray for their well being, for them not loosing hope in themselves, for they turned their backs on You a long time ago.
Lord I am nowhere, I am nothing, I am lost, I believed this business would solve our economical problems and You would heal the wounds left behind and all would be good, like it once was. Dear Jesus, I stand before You, with a bleeding heart, my soul is open to You, I am completely empty of purpose, direction, support.You know it is not just a matter of money, we have been short before and You have solved our problems, today we stand before You with nothing. No money, no jobs, no business, no food, no nothing. THANK YOU JESUS, THANK YOU, for this situation gives me the oportunity to love You more, to get closer to You, to bare my soul to You and Your warriors for they are my brothers and sisters, they are my guardian angels, they show me love and care, they worry for me and my family.
Dear Jesus, the chips are down, there is no other way to go than up, and here I stand my Lord, Your servant and slave waiting for You to fulfill Your promises, waiting for You to touch me and my family with the tip of Your finger and make it all well, here we stand waiting for Your time, for Your will. Nothing will separate me from You My Jesus, nothing will make me doubt You or Your ways. I stand strong and as always finish this prayer to You with the windows of my sou open, waiting for You and Your blessings, today, tomorrow, it does not matter, I know You wil come. THANK YOU JESUS IN YOU WE TRUST, THANK YOU PRAYER WARRIORS FR YOUR CARE AND PRAYERS FOR MYSELF AND MY FAMILY.
