Help Me

[Me]

I'm so confused. My head feels as if it is spinning. I'm not happy at all. I have done something very wrong and fear I will never be able to get over it or forgive myself. I am struggling with what I have done. This has been going on for about 4 years now. Every time I feel a little more put-together, Satan hits me again. I am struggling with a recurring problem...you might almost think of it as an addiction. I've prayed for help with this for so long. I've tried some measures to change my situation, but they never work out. I keep failing at avoiding the temptation. I feel as if I am not sure what God has for me in his will. I don't know if he is so disappointed in me that he is not hearing my prayers, but I need help. I've thought of suicide to stop the constant struggle, but I know that is not the answer. I just need help. I hate my life like this. I think I know what I want, but it just seems impossible.

 

[Sandra]

Keep calling out to Jesus, he is faithful. You have to occupy your mind (take your mind in a different direction) take your mind off of yourself and your problems (it sounds like it is too big, whenever it is too big...just sigh and give it to JESUS. Do your best to speak and live right and ask JESUS to live inside of you. HE AWESOME he can turn any situation around... I AM A TESTAMONY TOO THAT. I've been homeless...he took care of me when I was in the streets..he hid me from dangers as if people didn't see me. I went hungry sometimes but never died of starvation... somehow I got to eat. I now live in a cute small apt in a safe neighborhood. I love Jesus so much. He LOVES YOU SO MUCH. Don't go after the things of this world "they are only temporary!!! Get involved with the things of heaven. Talk "YOU" in a different direction.. (it starts in your mind). The first step in a different direction is the hardest because the haunting/problem seems attached to you. BUT HAVE FAITH "JESUS" in you is greater than any problem. Just keep praying to him "and a miracle will happen for you". I'm involved with fighting devils for Sarah Palin http://sarahpalinisatrueamericanhero.blogspot.com. OBAMA is the antichrist. Sarah Palin is anointed by God and no weapon formed against her shall prosper. If you have a computer, create T-shirts at zazzle.com and get a paypal acct. then go to Sarah Palin -banned site- Page and invite people to buy your t-shirts (just an example of how to redirect your mind so it won't be idle to other temptations. (Get busy in doing righteous acts in line with the will of God/Jesus) you'll see and feel the Joy of Jesus inside you when you do and you will feel AWESOME inside. SUICIDE is the will of satan the destroyer and believe me you will only be taken yourself to a forever tormenting place when all you have to do is redirect your mind and then your steps and life will take a different turn for the better. Everyone writes a book about themselves ...and you have better chapters ahead of you. Love. sarahpalinspeaksforme@yahoo.com