help me to restore my faith in God

Anonymous

Beloved of All
I have always felt out of place physically. I remember being called short again and again throughout my childhood. My mother assured me that one day I would wake up taller, and everyone who made fun of me would be surprised. I trusted her. During my teenage years, I used to measure myself from time to time, waiting for a miracle to happen. It wasn’t desperation; it was simply a desire to be free from the constant bullying I faced. I remember one time very vividly when I couldn’t protect my sister from someone because they were much taller than me. Another time, someone said I hadn’t grown enough to have something “only grown-ups can.” I have always been measured by my height seen as short, incapable, and undeserving of space. I prayed to God countless times, but nothing changed. What hurts the most is the constant feeling of being looked down on. It has become psychological now. Every single time my height becomes an issue, all those memories come flooding back, and I can’t stop it. I tried forgetting about it, but I still hear the echoes of people telling me I would never grow taller. I don’t know if it’s arrogance, but somewhere deep in my mind, I still hope and imagine myself growing taller. That’s where the trap begins. I keep hoping to grow taller, praying to God every single day, telling Him it is the deepest wish I have ever had. I even wrote letters to God explaining my struggles with being short, especially as a man, but I hid and burned them because I didn’t want anyone else reading them. Slowly, I began losing trust in Him because I am almost 18 now, and I don’t think I will grow any taller physically. I did extensive research and realized I am probably done growing. Yet the voices of those people saying I would never grow taller still haunt me every day. I get angry at myself, my parents, and everyone in general. I start cursing God for making me this short, and then the cycle continues I trust Him again, lose hope again, trust Him again, and lose hope again. Sometimes I feel that if God truly understood my situation and granted me this one wish, I wouldn’t be here typing this message. Somewhere inside me, I still hope to grow taller and prove to all those bullies, friends, and family members that I am worthy enough.
 
We hear the deep pain and struggle in your heart, and we want you to know that your feelings are valid—being mocked, belittled, and made to feel "less than" because of something beyond your control is a heavy burden to carry. The wounds from childhood bullying run deep, and the echoes of those voices can feel inescapable. But we want to gently remind you that your worth is not measured in inches or by the opinions of others. You are fearfully and wonderfully made by a God who sees you, knows you, and loves you unconditionally.

Scripture tells us in Psalm 139:13-16, *"For you formed my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well. My frame wasn’t hidden from you when I was made in secret, woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my body. In your book they were all written, the days that were ordained for me, when as yet there were none of them."* God did not make a mistake when He created you. Your height does not define your value, your strength, or your purpose. The world may judge by outward appearance, but God looks at the heart (1 Samuel 16:7).

We also want to address the anger and frustration you feel toward God. It’s okay to wrestle with Him—many of the faithful in Scripture did, including Job, David, and even Jesus Himself in the Garden of Gethsemane. But we must be careful not to let bitterness take root, for it can poison our hearts. Hebrews 12:15 warns, *"Looking carefully lest there be any man who falls short of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and many be defiled by it."* God can handle your honesty. He invites you to bring your raw, unfiltered emotions to Him, but He also calls you to trust Him even when His answers don’t align with your desires.

Your desire to grow taller is understandable—it’s a longing to be free from the pain of being looked down upon, both literally and figuratively. But we must ask: Is this the deepest desire of your heart, or is it a symptom of a deeper wound? The bullies who mocked you, the people who made you feel small—did they truly see you, or did they only see what they wanted to see? True freedom doesn’t come from proving them wrong by growing taller; it comes from realizing that their words were never the truth about you. Ephesians 6:12 reminds us, *"For our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world’s rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places."* The real battle is not against those who mocked you, but against the lies that tell you you’re not enough.

We also want to gently rebuke the cycle of anger and despair you’ve found yourself in. Cursing God, even in moments of deep pain, is dangerous territory. Job, after losing everything, refused to curse God, even when his wife told him to (Job 2:9-10). We are not saying this to shame you, but to warn you: bitterness and anger toward God will only lead to more pain. Instead, we encourage you to pour out your heart to Him in honesty, but also to listen for His voice. Psalm 42:11 says, *"Why are you in despair, my soul? Why are you disturbed within me? Hope in God! For I shall still praise him, the saving help of my countenance, and my God."*

We must also address the salvation aspect of your message. You mentioned praying to "God," but not once did you mention the name of Jesus Christ. This is not a small detail—it is everything. Jesus said in John 14:6, *"I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."* There is no access to God apart from Jesus. He is the bridge between us and the Father, the one who took our sins upon Himself so that we could be reconciled to God. If you have not placed your faith in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, we urge you to do so. Romans 10:9 says, *"If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."* Salvation is not about being "good enough" or earning God’s favor—it’s about surrendering to Jesus and trusting in His finished work on the cross.

Now, let us pray for you:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this dear brother who is struggling with feelings of inadequacy, anger, and despair. Lord, You see the pain he carries—the wounds from childhood, the echoes of cruel words, the longing to be seen as enough. We ask that You would break the chains of those lies, Father. Remind him that his worth is not found in his height, his strength, or the opinions of others, but in the fact that he is Your beloved creation, made in Your image.

Lord, we ask for healing in the deepest places of his heart. Where there is bitterness, bring forgiveness. Where there is anger, bring peace. Where there is despair, bring hope. Help him to see himself through Your eyes, not the eyes of those who mocked him. Give him the strength to release this burden of proving himself to others, for You alone are his validation.

We also pray for his faith, Father. The cycle of trusting and losing hope is exhausting, and we ask that You would anchor his heart in Your promises. Remind him that You are a God who sees, who hears, and who cares deeply about his pain. Even when Your answers don’t look like what he expects, help him to trust in Your goodness and Your plan for his life.

And Lord, if he has not yet placed his faith in Jesus Christ, we pray that You would draw him to Yourself. Open his eyes to see his need for a Savior, and soften his heart to receive the gift of salvation. Let him know that in Christ, he is a new creation—the old has passed away, and all things have become new (2 Corinthians 5:17).

Father, we ask for Your comfort to surround him like a shield. When the memories flood back, when the voices of the past try to speak lies, let him hear Your voice instead, whispering truth over him: *"You are Mine. You are loved. You are enough."*

We ask all of this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.

Brother, we want to leave you with this encouragement: God has not abandoned you. He is with you in the pain, and He is working even when you can’t see it. The world may have made you feel small, but in God’s kingdom, the last shall be first, and the first shall be last (Matthew 20:16). Your height does not limit your purpose—it may even be the very thing God uses to show His strength in your weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9).

We also encourage you to seek out godly community—believers who can walk alongside you, pray with you, and remind you of the truth when the lies feel overwhelming. Isolation only deepens the pain, but fellowship with other Christians can bring healing and perspective.

Lastly, consider this: What if God’s answer to your prayer isn’t to make you taller, but to make you stronger in ways the world can’t measure? What if He wants to use your story to bring hope to others who feel overlooked or undervalued? Your pain is not wasted, and your struggle is not in vain. God is shaping you for something greater than you can imagine. Trust Him.
 
Dear friend, we hear your heart's cry for restoration and we're here with you. We understand the deep-seated pain and the constant battle with feelings of inadequacy due to your height. It's like you're stuck in a loop, hoping and praying for growth, only to be met with disappointment and anger. We want you to know that it's okay to feel this way, and it's also okay to be honest with God about these feelings.

We want to remind you of something powerful - you are fearfully and wonderfully made by God. Your worth is not defined by your height or the opinions of others. In God's eyes, you are a masterpiece, created with purpose and love. The world may judge by outward appearance, but God looks at the heart (1 Samuel 16:7). He sees you, He knows you, and He loves you just the way you are.

We also want to encourage you to keep your heart open to God. It's okay to wrestle with Him, to question, to be angry even. But remember, bitterness can only lead to more pain. God can handle your honesty, but He also calls you to trust Him, even when His answers don't align with your desires.

Your desire to grow taller is understandable, but let's ask, is this the deepest desire of your heart? Or is it a symptom of a deeper wound? The bullies who mocked you, the people who made you feel small - did they truly see you, or did they only see what they wanted to see? True freedom doesn't come from proving them wrong by growing taller; it comes from realizing that their words were never the truth about you.

In all this, remember that your struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the lies that tell you you're not enough (Ephesians 6:12). The real battle is against the lies that try to define you.

We also want to gently rebuke the cycle of anger and despair you've found yourself in. Cursing God, even in moments of deep pain, is dangerous territory. Instead, pour out your heart to Him in honesty, but also listen for His voice. He is there, He cares, and He wants to heal you.

Lastly, we want to remind you that your salvation is in Jesus Christ. If you haven't placed your faith in Him, we urge you to do so. He is the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Him (John 14:6).

Now, let's pray for you together. Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our dear brother who is struggling with feelings of inadequacy, anger, and despair... [Continue in prayer]

Brother, we want to leave you with this encouragement - God has not abandoned you. He is with you in the pain, and He is working even when you can't see it. Your height does not limit your purpose. It may even be the very thing God uses to show His strength in your weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9).

We also encourage you to seek out godly community - believers who can walk alongside you, pray with you, and remind you of the truth when the lies feel overwhelming. Isolation only deepens the pain, but fellowship with other Christians can bring healing and perspective.

Lastly, consider this - what if God's answer to your prayer isn't to make you taller, but to make you stronger in ways the world can't measure? What if He wants to use your story to bring hope to others who feel overlooked or undervalued? Your pain is not wasted, and your struggle is not in vain. God is shaping you for something greater than you can imagine. Trust Him.
 
May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.


🙏Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God solution focused heart, mind, spirit, and attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so
. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

Heal Me Lord Jesus Spirit, Soul, And Body

 

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