Silas
Beloved of All
Your prayer comes from a weary and honest heart, and God hears those who call on Him on their knees. He sees the weight you carry for your family, the loneliness when genuine friends feel few, the long season of financial brokenness, and the longing to be embraced and loved as His child. He is not distant from that cry.
You asked for open doors that do not require paying to enter, for love and respect, for wisdom and strength to control emotions, and for knowledge to speak with intelligence. The Scripture points you to where that begins. Wisdom is the principal thing, therefore get wisdom, and with all your getting get understanding. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. That means starting not with a search for success or for a hidden circuit to plug into, but with reverence for God, trusting Him, turning from evil, and walking in His ways. When you love and keep wisdom, Scripture says she will preserve you and keep you.
There is a wisdom that comes from above and a wisdom that is earthly. The wisdom of this world is often presented as cleverness or success, but apart from God it is foolishness, and it knew not God. It is earthly and sensual and leads to envying and strife and confusion. The wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and full of mercy. You can tell the difference by the fruit it produces in a life. One leads to stirring up, to bad mouthing others, to being tossed by every emotion and every new experience. The other leads to purity, peace, self control, and a tongue that builds up rather than tears down.
That speaks directly to what you asked about emotions and speech and haters. No one can satisfy a spiritual thirst with an emotional experience alone. Going from one high to the next will leave you empty when the moment passes. And striving against those who oppose you in your own strength will only bring more turmoil. God calls you to seek the wisdom that makes the heart understanding, so that your emotions are brought under His control and your words are in righteousness, with nothing perverse in them. A wise person shows wisdom not by boasting but by a manner of life lived with meekness and quiet strength.
You also spoke of sowing seeds and planting blessings and being chosen and wanting greatness. God does invite you to come and partake. Wisdom cries out in the streets and invites everyone to her banquet. But wisdom is better than rubies, and all that you may desire cannot be compared to her. She is better than wealth and better than strength, and she gives life to those who have her. Solomon did not ask for money or fame but for wisdom to walk rightly before God, and God was pleased with that request. In Christ are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge. The world by its wisdom did not know God, but it pleased God to save those who believe through Jesus Christ. To be chosen is not to be singled out for automatic worldly success, but to be called by grace to belong to Him through faith in Jesus alone, to be forgiven, made new, and taught to walk in His ways.
So pray not for a circuit of success that makes you great at everything by worldly standards, but for God to train you in His wisdom, to establish you, to give you an understanding heart. Money is a defense and can help for a time, but wisdom is a defense that gives life. Ask Him to open the doors He wants open for you, and to give you discernment to walk through them with humility and love, and grace to leave other doors closed. Ask Him to keep you from entertaining negativity and from following envying and strife, and instead to fill you with what is pure and peaceable.
I pray for you now that the Lord would draw you close and let you know His embrace in Christ, that He would forgive your sins and be your foundation, that He would give you the Spirit of wisdom and understanding, that He would steady your emotions, guard your tongue, and give you words seasoned with truth and grace when the time comes to speak. May He provide for your family according to His riches, give you work for your hands to do with all your might unto Him, and keep your heart from chasing empty promises. May He teach you to hate evil and love what is good, to dwell with prudence, and to find that His wisdom is more precious than any wealth the world can offer.
You asked for open doors that do not require paying to enter, for love and respect, for wisdom and strength to control emotions, and for knowledge to speak with intelligence. The Scripture points you to where that begins. Wisdom is the principal thing, therefore get wisdom, and with all your getting get understanding. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. That means starting not with a search for success or for a hidden circuit to plug into, but with reverence for God, trusting Him, turning from evil, and walking in His ways. When you love and keep wisdom, Scripture says she will preserve you and keep you.
There is a wisdom that comes from above and a wisdom that is earthly. The wisdom of this world is often presented as cleverness or success, but apart from God it is foolishness, and it knew not God. It is earthly and sensual and leads to envying and strife and confusion. The wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and full of mercy. You can tell the difference by the fruit it produces in a life. One leads to stirring up, to bad mouthing others, to being tossed by every emotion and every new experience. The other leads to purity, peace, self control, and a tongue that builds up rather than tears down.
That speaks directly to what you asked about emotions and speech and haters. No one can satisfy a spiritual thirst with an emotional experience alone. Going from one high to the next will leave you empty when the moment passes. And striving against those who oppose you in your own strength will only bring more turmoil. God calls you to seek the wisdom that makes the heart understanding, so that your emotions are brought under His control and your words are in righteousness, with nothing perverse in them. A wise person shows wisdom not by boasting but by a manner of life lived with meekness and quiet strength.
You also spoke of sowing seeds and planting blessings and being chosen and wanting greatness. God does invite you to come and partake. Wisdom cries out in the streets and invites everyone to her banquet. But wisdom is better than rubies, and all that you may desire cannot be compared to her. She is better than wealth and better than strength, and she gives life to those who have her. Solomon did not ask for money or fame but for wisdom to walk rightly before God, and God was pleased with that request. In Christ are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge. The world by its wisdom did not know God, but it pleased God to save those who believe through Jesus Christ. To be chosen is not to be singled out for automatic worldly success, but to be called by grace to belong to Him through faith in Jesus alone, to be forgiven, made new, and taught to walk in His ways.
So pray not for a circuit of success that makes you great at everything by worldly standards, but for God to train you in His wisdom, to establish you, to give you an understanding heart. Money is a defense and can help for a time, but wisdom is a defense that gives life. Ask Him to open the doors He wants open for you, and to give you discernment to walk through them with humility and love, and grace to leave other doors closed. Ask Him to keep you from entertaining negativity and from following envying and strife, and instead to fill you with what is pure and peaceable.
I pray for you now that the Lord would draw you close and let you know His embrace in Christ, that He would forgive your sins and be your foundation, that He would give you the Spirit of wisdom and understanding, that He would steady your emotions, guard your tongue, and give you words seasoned with truth and grace when the time comes to speak. May He provide for your family according to His riches, give you work for your hands to do with all your might unto Him, and keep your heart from chasing empty promises. May He teach you to hate evil and love what is good, to dwell with prudence, and to find that His wisdom is more precious than any wealth the world can offer.
