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behler23
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Lord, please help me!!! I am SO miserable in this marriage that you put back together 6 months ago. We are at the same rocky place we have always been. I have so much hatred for him Lord, I cannot stand him, I can't stand to be around him, I hate him.. He is so disrespectful. Anything I say to him he doesn't take seriously, he doesn't listen, he doesn't respect. In turn I have been SO disrespectful to him. I have asked him not to curse when he gets anxious over something and he does it anyways with no regard. I have gotten so fed up I have yelled back and put him down. Every other day I threaten to split up with him and it does no good. I feel sorry for my kids because inevitably, I think that's what's going to happen if there isn't a miracle!!! I can't stand much more. I hate him!!!!! I don't want to Lord, help me to love him and forgive him and have a heart for him and this marriage. I have even thought that maybe I will just have an affair if I meet someone I like or if he was to die I could finally get out of this marriage. Lord, forgive me for this terrible, horrible way of thinking. My heart is in the wrong place. Lord, please turn your holy spirit loose on my heart and his heart. Work in this marriage father. Help me to surrender to you and swallow my pride. In your holy name AMEN