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morgan1029
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Ever since my brothers death december 28, 2010 i have been plauged with doubt and fear, Escpecially regarding my godly boyfriend. I loved him so much, and i still do, but ever since my brother died i just dont feel the way i used to and ITS NOT WHAT I WANT. The thought of not loving him and not being with him, makes me just want to die. I am so scared. I want nothing more than to feel what i used to. he is such a godly man and leader. He has stood by mine and my familys side since my brothers death. I dont want to lose him.. I would love to marry him. He has been praying too about my situation and he says He knows god will fix me but im scared 
Basically I would love for Ben ( boyfriend ) and I to make it through this hard time, and for my feelings to disapper and my old one come back. I want to feel the love I had for him again. I want that so bad.. we need some help in our relationship but i wouldnt want anyone else. God please..

Basically I would love for Ben ( boyfriend ) and I to make it through this hard time, and for my feelings to disapper and my old one come back. I want to feel the love I had for him again. I want that so bad.. we need some help in our relationship but i wouldnt want anyone else. God please..

