Mughgwyth
Humble Prayer Partner
Hello, I am that 18-year-old girl. My name is ###. My father and I had a discussion about my issues and my mental issues and my suicidal thoughts and how I went through bullying and ended up seeking attention from wrong people and wrong boys. He started saying I am a prostitute. Yes, I admit I was wrong. I tried explaining myself what is going on inside me mentally, and he seems not to understand what I am going through. He said don't ever ask anything from me again, and I told him I was sorry and I was wrong. I told him I really need help. It feels like everything is getting worse. He told me he is not going to pay my lessons fees because I am useless. I honestly admit that I was wrong, and my intention is not being a bad child, NO! But something is mentally wrong with me. But I am praying about it for God to bring back the little girl that's dead inside me because I haven't been myself lately, and I was expecting for my dad to understand me, but he told me to leave him alone. I don't even know what to do, so I am just going to study on my own and wait for my May-June exams since my father refused to pay for some lessons where I can get help for the preparation of my exams. It's because the reason is that he finds me talking to boys on my phone, and I tried explaining some of them are just friends, and he ended up shouting at me more and more, and I just stopped explaining myself because God knows that all of that isn't true; those weren't my intentions. I am just going to pray and open up my heart for God to heal my wounds. I am tired of crying; I am truly tired.