AGAPE55
Beloved of All
Heavenly father your will be done with Conor and me. I want the best for him. We were together for a long time. I miss him very much especially at this moment that I am hurting. He was aways respectful and protective of me. He was a good and peaceful man but he struggled with alcohol because of the abuse he expereinced as a child when he was an alter boy. No one believed him or his best friend that they were victims of this. His friend shortly commited suicide becuase of the abuse. Conor has carried this in his heart his whole life. I left him cause i did not enjoy him coming home occasionally drunk. I was already married to a different kind of alcohoic. Lord I have bumped into him many many times and he looks like he is doing much better. We have also stopped and chatted many times and it seems he is also getting his life in better order. He's definately gotten more motivated and has gotten more work because I hear his voice on many commercials. Lord Help us to find our way back. We had a good relationship with the acception of his binge drinking days. He was never violent or rude but it was like taking care of another child having to go get him, carrying him home and tucking him in because of the drunkeness. Lord God I dont want to be alone anymore and I pray this prayer not because I feel I need him but because we were a good union when there was no alcohol in the mix. We had a lot in common and kept each other at our best. We always inspired each other and pushed each other to pursue our dreams. Even when we were broken up he took care of me.When my son lost his eye he would cook and bring us dinner at least 3 times a week. He's a good man. I'm not YOU Lord so I cant remove his chidhood pain but I pray now Lord that you heal his heart. and bring us closer again. I pray for us to reunite. I lift up this prayer to You in your name and in the name of the Holy Spirit Amen
