Walkwithgod
Good and Faithful Servant
Heavenly Father,
Thank you for this day and for giving me strength to get up when all I feel like I want to do is cry and sleep. Today is day 2 father and it is very hard. I just remember all the bad in our marriage and how it doesn't seem he was ever a husband to me at all and now I feel that same emotionally abandoned feeling wondering why? I stood by him when most people would have left after being emotionally/verbally/physically abused. I stood by him when everyone else was against him, homelessness, him almost going to jail. I did so much for him and in turn it seems like he's fine with just throwing this marriage away like I never mattered as a person or spouse to him. He is probably happily living experiencing what it's like to live single. I've left and he doesn't reach out when most husbands would be fighting if they cared. Please God show me my husband's true heart as I am losing faith wondering what is the point of standing when it seems better to cut my losses. If it's a spirit of pride and anger I pray that they will flee in Jesus Name. Please God help him to remember how I stood by him and take away his anger. Please open his eyes, heart, mind and soul. Father, give me wisdom and discernment to see what you are seeing and how you see my husband. Please give me love, peace and joy and help me to be a good example to my daughter. Give me patience with my children and help me to be able to instill the values and build up their character. Father, I pray for conviction and repentance of any sins for my husband and help me to see any changes that need to be made in me. Please give me strength not to reach out to him or enable unless by your will. I pray for guidance in this and that I can see hope. I thank you for what you are bout to do. In Jesus Name,Amen.
Thank you for this day and for giving me strength to get up when all I feel like I want to do is cry and sleep. Today is day 2 father and it is very hard. I just remember all the bad in our marriage and how it doesn't seem he was ever a husband to me at all and now I feel that same emotionally abandoned feeling wondering why? I stood by him when most people would have left after being emotionally/verbally/physically abused. I stood by him when everyone else was against him, homelessness, him almost going to jail. I did so much for him and in turn it seems like he's fine with just throwing this marriage away like I never mattered as a person or spouse to him. He is probably happily living experiencing what it's like to live single. I've left and he doesn't reach out when most husbands would be fighting if they cared. Please God show me my husband's true heart as I am losing faith wondering what is the point of standing when it seems better to cut my losses. If it's a spirit of pride and anger I pray that they will flee in Jesus Name. Please God help him to remember how I stood by him and take away his anger. Please open his eyes, heart, mind and soul. Father, give me wisdom and discernment to see what you are seeing and how you see my husband. Please give me love, peace and joy and help me to be a good example to my daughter. Give me patience with my children and help me to be able to instill the values and build up their character. Father, I pray for conviction and repentance of any sins for my husband and help me to see any changes that need to be made in me. Please give me strength not to reach out to him or enable unless by your will. I pray for guidance in this and that I can see hope. I thank you for what you are bout to do. In Jesus Name,Amen.
