Heart Is Crushed

[Christ Daughter]

Right about now, my spirit is saddened. For one, I never got the chance to bond with my father before he went to be with the Lord. My spirit is so heavy! I am jealous that my older sister got all those chances & I was just left wondering :'( I wonder if he is watching over me from Heaven? I feel isolated from my father's family. They were supposed to have a get-together, but I don't think it will happen. All I have is the family on my mother's side. My father's family doesn't care for me. My sister barely keep in touch, and my nieces probably don't like me as much. I regret finding my cousin on -banned site-! Neither of them try to keep in touch. It hurts my heart to its core. Maybe my father didn't let them know about me?

 

[katylynn]

I understand this. I'm a college student trying to make it on my own. My mom passed away 5 months ago and my dad 2 years. It's hard not to get jealous of others whose parents come to school & visit & help them with living. I wish I had their help to move into my first apartment & graduate college, but I earthly do not. The one thing that helps me is to remember God will never give me anything I cannot handle. I can make it. You can make it. There may always been that sad spot, but with God you will grow into a stronger human being than you can ever imagine. When He closes one door He opens another when we call in His name. I know this personally.

He is absolutely watching over you daily. I can imagine him smiling when you smile & rejoicing when you rejoice. Live everyday as if it were the last. Love everyone with everything you have. It's key to life. As for your family getting it together- I think we all have family we wish that for. You focus on you & your relationship with Jesus first and foremost. The right people at the right time will gently fall into your life if you let them, and no, that's not always your family. But, they can become family. Good luck love. Pray daily, stay strong, & belive in yourself & your God.

 

[Christ Daughter]

Thank you for your encouragement! I greatly appreciate it I will always pray & trust in God

 

[flora]

i have prayed