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meecha
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I am still not feeling well and have to get a colonoscopy soon. I go in for consult tommorrow. Still having stomache pain and bowel issues. Very scared of cancer. I am having super anxiety as I do have anxiety disease.I know God is with me and loves me. I also know just because I am a christian does not mean I won't suffer. I know that you should glorify God through everything. I do thank him everyday and am trying to trust him as I am in his hands. I keep going to the worst scenerio and it is affecting everything. My marriage, my job, my kids ask Why I cry all the time. I may lose my job because of this even though I have a doctor note. My husband is leaving to go on a fishing trip for five days even though I asked him not to go because of the colonoscopy consult and sceduling of it. My husband leaves me to golf all the time even before these problems arose. He says he loves me but I wonder. Because I would drop everything and be with him if he asked me too.He says not to take this trip from him even though he just went on a four day golf trip. Pray for me as I will be with my young children all those days and have to work the weekdays. If I don't get fired.I really need support as I go through this and no family is near.
