Eliergate
Disciple of Prayer
I pray for my health to get better. I feel as if I'm not the healthiest right now. I'm being under attack by the man that lives upstairs from me, and this has been going on for a while. I don't know why he's attacking me, but he makes a lot of noise all the time, even inside of my sleep. Every morning and night, sometimes it doesn't even matter the time of the day. I feel as if he doesn't want me to get rest. He's constantly doing something by the pipes, and I live in a high ceiling building, so that's kind of aggravating towards me. I pray for a new home so I can choose my own bedroom. I live with my mother still, and sometimes I feel as if I would like my own bedroom so I can feel more feminine and be at peace with myself. I used to share a bedroom with her, and I feel as if her bed was better. I wanted to kill myself for wishing death on my mother and her ex bf ever since he died. I haven't been right or been myself. I pray that God forgives me. I miss the woman that I used to be. I got diagnosed from the hospital with schizophrenia a couple of years ago. I felt unsafe living with my cousin; she used to stare at me a lot. I had told the people at the hospital everything that I was going through, and they looked at me as if I was crazy. She diagnosed me with psychosis in the past. I used to talk to myself, but I prayed to God, and he healed me before from that experience before it had gotten out of control. I pray that he heals me again. I learned now not to throw myself off and not to speak badly of others that tore me down and tore me apart. I pray to be forgiven. I'm also dating a guy, and I feel like I regret meeting him. He wants to do Pornhub and make videos as a profession and talks of having sex with other women. He's also a polygamist. I don't mind it, but I also know I deserve better. I don't trust that he wants to date multiple women. I would rather he just date me and be with me. I pray for healing and that maybe we can work on our relationship and that he changes his mind about dating multiple women. I pray for healing and pray for better days. I don't trust nobody. I don't trust the people who come to see me at my house. I'm with a program, and they come to see me certain days out of the week due to my diagnosis and me suffering from a mental illness. It's been years since I've been with them. I don't want to be around certain people. I don't trust some of the people that's with the program. Even when I was at the hospital, the counselor that I had would come into my room and try to force me to go to groups, but I didn't want to because I didn't like the people who I was surrounded with. I didn't even like neither one of my roommates. One of my roommates kept closing the door shut behind her, and she would come near me. She was just acting strange and kept smiling at me, trying to speak with me when I had first gotten to the hospital. She kept on singing really loud and kept calling people sista. I don't judge, but I did not feel comfortable with having her as a roommate. Then it just felt weird being there. They kept me there for a month. I couldn't leave until I had a treatment plan on what they were going to do with me. My mother put me in the hospital because she said I wasn't showering, but I was. I felt as if she wanted to know and see me when I showered, which felt strange and awkward. I pray that I go back to being 5'6. I've grown a couple of inches. I gained weight, and a lot of things have changed about me that I don't really feel too familiar with or comfortable. I pray for healing. I pray to heal from low self-esteem. I pray to heal from anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder, fear, shame, guilt. I pray for a healthy body. I pray to be forgiven from all of my past sins. I pray to learn from my mistakes and not make the same mistakes over and over again. I pray for a new car so I can drive new places and take myself out and so I don't have to rely or wait on transportation and I could just go myself. I pray that my teeth grow back and heal and become healthy again. My teeth aren't as healthy as they should be, and I pray that they heal and go back to being healthy and strong. I pray that I find a job that I like and a job that pays well. I pray for healing from my past. I pray that I can forgive my brother for how he treated me in the past. I pray that my eyes heal. I pray that my back heals from mild scoliosis. I pray that my mind heals. I pray to heal from flat feet. I pray to heal from the tear in my back. I pray for my voice to come back. I pray to find true love. There's a guy who I saw once, and he was very handsome, and I felt like it was love at first sight, but I never really saw him after that one time. I saw him a couple of years later, but I didn't like how he looked. I wasn't even looking like myself. I pray for true love. I pray for healing. I pray for strength and protection. I pray for my grandmother and my mother and my father's health to be healthy as well. I pray for my father to heal from mental illness. I pray for my mother to heal from blood clots and any other health issues that she may have. I pray for my grandmother's legs to heal.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
