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im bi polar and depressed with five kids and a husband of nineteen years. Recently I went home to help my mother, because she had an operation, i ran out of my meds while I was there, my mother and I had a very large fight, and I had a near nervous break down. and went back to my old ways. When I returned home, I was all over the place mentally, and I lashed out at every one in my life. even my very best friend, who when I returned home had another friend, and she seems to do things with this person that she cant seem to do with me, it offended me to the point where it hurt very bad, and being bi polar and a only child and a mentally abused as a child, I felt that I was expendable to every on in my life. i still feel that way, but my fried hurt me very bad and she cant seem to tell me why she has more comfort with some one she has known years less then me. I'm very hurt and was very hurt then and I did and said things I did not mean, but my fried still came to me to make things right, I'm now doing much better because my meds are in my system again, and I'm looking back on my behavior and I feel like a fool, at the same time she is wrong too. Now I feel that I ment nothing to her and I never did. That hurts even more, but I love her and I miss her dearly and I need her. I need prayer to heal and fix my friendship with my best friend, but I need her to be very honest and more open with me. I also need prayer, because I'm a very overly nice person and I keep getting hurt, I need prayer for that, and of course a job that i will love like bar tending, prayer that my ebt card has money on it on the first of September. prayer for my husband and his brothers find a way to make things right for his mother. and prayer for my children and my marriage to be more successful and trust worthy for us both. thank you and god bless....
