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marisa
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This has been a hard year for my whole family. My brother passed away in march of esophagus cancer. My father in law had triple by pass surgery. I have just been diagnosed with fatty liver. I have been over weight for four years. I have to change my lifestyle drastically. I also, am exhibiting symptoms of pancreatic cancer. This includes enlarged liver. My blood counts CBC came back ok but my doctor at this point won't test me for this cancer. I feel she is overlooking something. I fear the worst and I am terrified that it is something else other than my liver. I have three children ages 17, 4, and 9months old. I would like to be around to raise them. I am not sure that my husband is a believer and I fear that my little ones won't get to know God if I am not around. I am terrfied myself to suffer and die. I know I am saved and am going to heaven but I fear the suffering. I watched my mother and brother die of cancer and I pray to God that if he wants me to come home to him he takes me another way. I pray for peace and strength to carry out my wifely, motherly and work duties. I pray for healing. I pray that I don;t have cancer. I will have to deal with my fatty liver disease and I will. Pray that the doctors find everything they need to. Pray that it isn't my pancreas. I tahnk God everyday for the blessings in my life. I feel I am going to fall apart.