You bring before God a heavy burden of affliction: a husband ravaged in body, mind, and spirit; aged family members unwell; your own salvation and finances and legal concerns. All this you lay at the feet of the Lord, pleading for healing, deliverance, and a favorable outcome. This is right, for He commands us to cast our cares upon Him. Yet let us consider carefully what we seek, and in what order.
You ask for the healing of the body, the success of an implant, the relief of pain. These are good; God created the body and will raise it incorruptible. But I fear that, like so many, you set your hearts on what is lesser while the soul lies neglected. Look at your own words: your husband is in a state of extreme anger, daily wishing for death, under heavy spiritual attack. Here is a soul crying out for salvation before the body perishes. Of what value is a repaired body if the soul remains sick unto death? You have told me yourself: the house is on fire, and you are asking for the curtains to be straightened. I do not say this to rebuke you harshly, but to wake you, as one would cry out to a sleeping man in a burning room.
You mention spiritual attack; yes, the enemy seizes upon affliction to breed despair and rage. But what is your chief weapon? It is the helmet of salvation, faith. Faith that Christ has overcome the world, that these light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory. Faith that the Lord is not come to judge and condemn, but to save. Will you let this helmet be knocked from your head by every fiery dart? You see that your husband’s will is crushed daily; but what can the world offer him? Medicines, surgeries, human judgments, these are all good in their place, but they cannot impart the peace that passes understanding. That peace must be the umpire in the heart. When the thought of despair wrestles with the thought of trust, which will you crown? If you let anger and bitterness preside, they will only increase the torment. Let the peace of God preside, and it will shame the thoughts that accuse and destroy. This peace is not the absence of conflict, but the presence of Christ who said, “In this world you will have trouble, but take heart; I have overcome the world.”
I hear you cry, “If it be Thy will, heal him!” That is well: you acknowledge that the outcome belongs to God. But are you prepared to accept a will different from your own? The Lord often allows sickness to remain as a medicine for the soul, a fire that burns away love of the world. We seek so eagerly what is comfortable, but neglect what is truly good for us. We take more care of a decaying house than of our immortal souls. Your husband’s anger and despair are a sign that his soul is in great peril; this should make you weep for him even more than for his bodily pains. You must become as the physician who is reviled by the delirious patient, yet returns again with the remedy. Do not be offended when he rages; instead, with compassion, preach the Cross to him, not with many words, but with a patient and prayerful life. The Cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to those being saved it is the power of God.
You plead for a positive outcome in your case, for financial relief. These too are trivial when measured against the one great verdict that awaits every soul. Do not think I am indifferent to your earthly needs, but I would have you seek first the Kingdom and His righteousness. For what will it profit you if you win every hearing and yet lose your own soul? And as for your salvation, how is it that you ask for it, and yet the very trials that might drive you to cling to Christ are treated as obstacles to be removed? The angel did not prevent Joseph’s perplexity until he had thought deeply; the delay was not cruelty, but preparation. So now, God may be using these very griefs to empty your hands of the world that they may grasp Him alone.
Therefore, I say to you: Do not cease to pray for healing and help. Bring your requests before God, but let your first and ceaseless cry be for the salvation of your husband, your father, your brother, and your own soul. Beg God to grant him the grace to submit to His will, even in agony, as Job did. Beg for the Holy Spirit to convict him of sin, to comfort him with the hope of the Resurrection, and to tame the wild beast of anger. Pray that he becomes not like a man who destroys the medicine because it is bitter, but like one who endures the surgeon’s knife because he trusts the Physician. And for yourself, make it your daily work to put on the breastplate of faith and love. Stand in the gap for him, not only by asking for his comfort, but by living in such peace that he sees Christ in you. Remember that the weakness of God is stronger than man’s strength, and the foolishness of the Cross wiser than all human remedies.
God did not spare His own Son, but gave Him up for us all; will He not also, along with Him, graciously give us all things, according to His wisdom, which knows what we truly need? Do not measure His love by the lifting of a single trial. He is making you, and them, fit for the Kingdom. The outcome of the case may go as you desire, or it may not; the body may mend or it may continue to decay. But if you possess the peace of God ruling in your heart, you will suffer no injury. None.
Now go, take up the shield of faith, and quench the flaming arrows of the evil one. And let your prayer be this: “Lord, save us, for we are perishing; but not our will, but Thine be done.”
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
