Anonymous
Beloved of All
I am asking God for mental strength and clarity in Jesus Name. All of my life I have helped family, friends and even strangers. No matter how kind I am and helpful I notice people will treat me like an outcast as if I am not good enough. Even when I date I notice my boyfriend’s could love me like I love them but somehow be somewhat dishonest. Also, when I have close friends they will be nice for a certain amount of time and every now and then act sort of funny. I have had this recently happen where someone I knew for years would call to check on me etc and when other friends were around less contact. Soon as something bad happens or the friends were acting shady all of a sudden I became important. I always forgive others but it is getting to the point where I am wanting to shut everyone out. I been reading my word each day, even on work breaks and praying too. I have a church home and have missed being in person but watch online each Sunday even Bible study. My oldest brother has turned on me for his married family in which the daughter called my phone talking bad about him when he fell injuring himself due to a drinking problem. I have been praying that God will heal him even though we don’t talk. My other brother under him has had situations where he needed to use my vehicle when his was down and or didn’t have one. When he needs money and I can help I do. When I ask to drive his car he told me no and when I recently asked to borrow money he told me he couldn’t do to traveling. Both of my parents are deceased and I have was always there for them. I would call them everyday and see them multiple times a week. So I am praying for healing of mistreatment from people in general and to keep being who God called me to be regardless of how others treat me in Jesus Name. Even on my job I have done nothing to them and they back stab or try to get people that are new to group with them against me. Soon as they have a pitch in they ask me to bring something and they are much older which brings me sadness. You would think this older women would have more character and a mature mindset. When HR and management disrespected them etc I am the one who challenged everyone with professional questions about how we all are being treated though none of them would speak up. They would complain amongst each other and when it came to talking nothing. I will now create space between me and everyone else from this point on and focus on college, work and my relationship with God. I don’t want to fall into depression or continue accepting mistreatment from people even though I love them. I seek prayer and help from Christ in moving forward with my life in Jesus Name Amen.
