anonymous7367
Humble Servant of All
Having an emotional morning. Missing my children that I want get to see, yet again over Christmas. My dear sweet friend is passing any time now. My lights are going to be cut off because I don't have the money to pay the bill. My husband's wages are going to be garnished because the taxes aren't paid and we don't have the money to pay them. My husband has already spent $200.00 of his $800.00 paycheck he is due to get a few days before Christmas on unnecessary items. That paycheck which wouldn't cover our bills, food, medication, gas anyway is now $200.00 less. Now he announces that he wants to borrow money against our already collateral loan to purchase Christmas gifts. I'm at a loss. I've learned not to comment on not having money to cover the bills although I am expected to cover them all without enough money to do so.
I am in tears. I am hurt. I am tired of praying with no relief. I don't know where to turn. I turned to God but no relief. What else am I to do. Thre years of unsuccessful job searching including unsuccessful working at home. What else am I suppose to do? I don't live lavishly. My single wide mobile home is 20 years old with the floors falling through in places, it needs insulation and underpinning. We have taken in several homeless families into our full house (full of our family) of 980 sq ft. So please tell me what do I do? How do I get money to fall from the sky so I can take care of our bills, buy food and medication? Social services says we don't qualify, the church is broke, It's amazing the lights are still on. Family has no extra, friends no extra. Where is the economy picking up because it isn't here?
I am in tears. I am hurt. I am tired of praying with no relief. I don't know where to turn. I turned to God but no relief. What else am I to do. Thre years of unsuccessful job searching including unsuccessful working at home. What else am I suppose to do? I don't live lavishly. My single wide mobile home is 20 years old with the floors falling through in places, it needs insulation and underpinning. We have taken in several homeless families into our full house (full of our family) of 980 sq ft. So please tell me what do I do? How do I get money to fall from the sky so I can take care of our bills, buy food and medication? Social services says we don't qualify, the church is broke, It's amazing the lights are still on. Family has no extra, friends no extra. Where is the economy picking up because it isn't here?
