anonymous7367
Humble Servant of All
Having a cringing day. Nothing has worked the way it was supposed to this week. I managed to get the past due car insurance put off one day so it won't lapse. But this winter storm has thrown a wrench in selling our jeep so we can pay bills. My husband's paycheck for the month, which he gets tomorrow, will be enough to repay the folks he had to borrow money from so we could eat and have gas for him to get to work this month (January). So now we have no money to pay any bills for February or finish paying January bills, let alone all the past due bills.
I HATE winter. Yes, I said HATE!! Everything has been iced over for two days and will be so again tomorrow and probably Sunday since the temperature never gets out of the 20's. I have suffered from depression my entire life, even as a child, and this kind of weather makes it worse.
Couple that with the financial nightmare we have been in that has not improved and seems to not be going to happen. I have done everything humanly possible to try to get caught up but nothing is working. I keep telling myself it will all work out that God will take care of it, but I am stuck. I am miserable. My mom is in hospice, my mother-in-law is due to come home from rehabilitation on Monday but she is still feeble. We can't move until they both pass away and it wouldn't matter anyway because we can't afford to move and my husband wants to move to Alaska because he loves the cold. I can't win no matter what.....Why does God hate me so bad?
I HATE winter. Yes, I said HATE!! Everything has been iced over for two days and will be so again tomorrow and probably Sunday since the temperature never gets out of the 20's. I have suffered from depression my entire life, even as a child, and this kind of weather makes it worse.
Couple that with the financial nightmare we have been in that has not improved and seems to not be going to happen. I have done everything humanly possible to try to get caught up but nothing is working. I keep telling myself it will all work out that God will take care of it, but I am stuck. I am miserable. My mom is in hospice, my mother-in-law is due to come home from rehabilitation on Monday but she is still feeble. We can't move until they both pass away and it wouldn't matter anyway because we can't afford to move and my husband wants to move to Alaska because he loves the cold. I can't win no matter what.....Why does God hate me so bad?

