The anger and the resentment leaving you is defintely from the Lord. The more love you feel for your husband is also from him too. Trust me I know ..I am going through the same thing. What God has showed me in all this is this...when i first separated from my husband, I went to God pleading my case about all my husband had done wrong and justifying my actions for reacting how I did. What God did was take that finger that I was pointing at my husband and turn it right back at me and revealed to me what I did wrong..all of it. He works in us first , he cleans house with in us and transforms us before he begins work in our spouses. As much as I love and miss my husband to no end..I know that if my marriage was restored without the work being done in me, it would be the same result and truly who wants to go through that all the time. I rather lay myself, my spouse and our marriage at the cross and let him fix it the way its supposed to be done, because when I tried to do it myself it did not work. Has this been an easy walk? Absolutely not BUT very rewarding because it forced me to take a good hard look at myself and it has transformed me. He took my heart of stone and gave me a heart of flesh. The closeness I feel with the Lord today has been a truly humbling experience and not one that I would trade for anything. The hardest thing is patience and waiting on his time..but we must remember that HIS time is the perfect time. Call out to him, surrender yourself, your husband and your marriage to him. Really surrender it to him. Truly "let go and let God" This was very difficult for me because I felt that i can only rely on myself and I needed to fix things..doesnt work. When you truly give it to him and trust him, and stand on his word, he will show you amazing things, he will comfort you, he will give you the strength to fight on even when you feel like giving up(which is from the enemy)God does put that unconditional love for your husband in your heart because thats how he loves us. Let him cleanse you surrender all to him ..give him control. I have learned..for myself anyway that God is invited to our wedding, but we often dont invite him to our marriage..WHEN my marriage is restored and I say WHEN not IF because I stand on his word that he hates divorce and what he has joined together let no man separate, I will be the person and wife that Lord will be proud of because it will be HIM that created me that way.I give him all the honor and the praise. HE is my marriage counselor. Stand stong , no weapon formed against you or your marriage shall prosper. I would advise that you read Kristies marraige teachings( she is a prayer intercessor on this site) it has helpe me tremendously. Her warfare prayer is awesome..when I pray it I feel the power in it. Stand strong and know that you dont stand alone..God is with you all the way.
