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mike3126
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To the people I have talked with before I am still here but barely I am hanging on with all my strength. Ever since my deployment things have been so awful for me. From severe depression to paralyzing loneliness. I have prayed and prayed and prayed some more and things get worse and don't know why. I am so terrified because I am so on the edge and have never seriously contemplated ending everything, I have even set myself a deadline to start feeling some sort of change as crazy as that sounds but if by that time it don't happen I fear what I may do. I don't ask for anything crazy or glamorous just for a normal life, to be happy and not alone all the time. I did have someone but it's like the devil has a grip on her and she was the one holding me together and now I have just about lost her because she is so confused. Please maybe someone else's prayer will be answered mine sure ain't.
