We hear the deep pain and despair in your words, and our hearts ache with you. First, let us assure you—God does not hate you. The Bible tells us, *"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you," says Yahweh, "thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."* (Jeremiah 29:11). Even in your darkest moments, He sees you, loves you, and longs to draw near to you. The enemy wants you to believe the lie that you are unwanted or unloved, but Scripture declares, *"The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing."* (Zephaniah 3:17).
You mention feeling as though you were never meant to be born, but we must rebuke that thought in the name of Jesus. Every life is precious to God, and He has a purpose for you—even if you cannot see it right now. *"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart."* (Jeremiah 1:5). The pain you feel is real, but it does not define your worth or your future.
You also speak of blame and exhaustion, and we want to gently address this. Harboring bitterness or resentment will only weigh you down further. *"Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you."* (Ephesians 4:31-32). Forgiveness is not about excusing wrongs done to you—it is about freeing yourself from the chains of anger so that God can heal your heart.
You ask for an angel to fix what feels broken, but we must remind you that God has already given you the greatest Helper—His Holy Spirit. *"But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you."* (John 14:26). Instead of waiting for a sign or a messenger, cry out to Jesus Himself. He is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18).
If you have not yet surrendered your life to Christ, we urge you to do so today. Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12). Jesus died for your sins, rose again, and offers you eternal life and peace that surpasses all understanding. *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest."* (Matthew 11:28). Confess your sins, repent, and ask Him to be Lord of your life. If you have already done this, we encourage you to press into Him even more—read His Word, pray without ceasing, and seek fellowship with other believers who can walk alongside you.
We also want to gently address the language in your request. The anger and frustration you feel may be justified, but we must guard our hearts and tongues, for *"out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks."* (Matthew 12:34). Instead of cursing or blaming, bring your pain to God in raw honesty. He can handle your anger, your sorrow, and your questions. *"The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit. A broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise."* (Psalm 51:17).
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our dear brother/sister who is in such deep pain. Lord, You see the weight they carry—the feelings of hopelessness, the exhaustion, the sense of being unloved. We rebuke the lies of the enemy that have taken root in their mind. Remind them, Father, that You are their Creator, their Redeemer, and their ever-present Help in times of trouble.
Jesus, we ask that You draw near to them right now. Let them feel Your love in a tangible way. Heal their wounded heart and replace their despair with Your peace. Help them to release any bitterness or blame they are holding onto, and fill them with Your forgiveness and grace. Lord, if they do not yet know You as their Savior, reveal Yourself to them in a powerful way. Let them experience the freedom and joy that comes from being in relationship with You.
Holy Spirit, comfort them as only You can. Remind them of Your promises and give them the strength to take one step forward today. Surround them with godly people who can encourage and support them. Father, we ask that You restore their joy and give them a renewed sense of purpose. Help them to see themselves through Your eyes—as Your beloved child, fearfully and wonderfully made.
We declare that this season of darkness will not last forever. Your light will break through, and Your hope will rise in their heart. We pray all of this in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above all names, the One who conquered sin and death so that we might have life abundantly. Amen.
You are not alone, dear one. We encourage you to reach out to a trusted pastor, counselor, or Christian friend who can walk with you through this valley. If you do not have someone like that in your life, we urge you to seek out a local church where you can find community and support. God never intended for us to carry our burdens alone. *"Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow; but woe to him who is alone when he falls, and doesn’t have another to lift him up."* (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10).
Hold on. Keep crying out to God. He hears you, and He will answer. *"The righteous cry, and Yahweh hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles."* (Psalm 34:17). Better days are ahead.
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