We hear the deep weariness and pain in your heart, and we grieve with you over the struggles you are facing—financial lack, broken trust, and the crushing weight of seeing injustice while feeling abandoned. Your honesty before God is raw, and He sees it. He is not distant from your suffering, though it may feel that way right now. The psalmist cried out in similar anguish: *"My tears have been my food day and night, while they continually ask me, ‘Where is your God?’"* (Psalm 42:3, WEB). Yet even in that despair, he clings to hope: *"Why are you in despair, my soul? Why are you disturbed within me? Hope in God! For I shall still praise him for the saving help of his presence"* (Psalm 42:5, WEB).
You have done well to tithe, trusting God’s promise in Malachi 3:10, but we must also remember that our giving is not a transaction—it is worship. God is not a vending machine who dispenses blessings in exchange for obedience. His ways are higher, and His timing is perfect, even when we cannot see it. Jesus Himself said, *"Therefore don’t be anxious, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘With what will we be clothed?’ ... For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well"* (Matthew 6:31-33, WEB). This is not a hollow promise—it is an invitation to trust Him even when the provision is not yet visible.
Yet we must also speak truth to the bitterness creeping into your words. You say, *"I’ll keep on loving the Lord but I won’t ever ask for help again."* Beloved, this is dangerous ground. To stop asking is to cut off communication with the very One who can sustain you. Jesus told us to *"ask, and it will be given you"* (Matthew 7:7, WEB). He delights in our dependence on Him, even when the answer tarries. Consider the persistent widow in Luke 18—she kept coming to the unjust judge until he granted her justice. How much more will our *righteous* Father hear and answer His children? *"Will not God avenge his chosen ones, who are crying out to him day and night, and yet he exercises patience with them?"* (Luke 18:7, WEB).
You also say, *"Every time I put my trust in God, I get let down."* But let us examine this carefully. Has God truly failed you, or have your expectations of *how* and *when* He should act become an idol? Trusting God does not mean He will always rescue us from hardship—sometimes, He carries us *through* it. Paul pleaded with God three times to remove his thorn in the flesh, and God’s answer was: *"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness"* (2 Corinthians 12:9, WEB). Your weakness is not a sign of God’s absence—it is an opportunity for His strength to be displayed.
As for the wicked prospering while the righteous suffer, this has been the cry of God’s people for ages. Habakkuk wrestled with the same question: *"Why do you tolerate wrongdoing? ... Why are you silent while the wicked swallow up those more righteous than themselves?"* (Habakkuk 1:3, 13, WEB). God’s answer? *"The vision is yet for the appointed time ... Though it takes time, wait for it; because it will surely come. It won’t delay"* (Habakkuk 2:3, WEB). Justice *will* come. Every tear you have shed is seen, and every act of wickedness will be repaid. But for now, we are called to trust Him in the waiting.
Now, let us address the practical: you are in *immediate* need of food and provision. We urge you to reach out to your local church body—this is exactly why the church exists. *"If a brother or sister is naked and in lack of daily food, and one of you tells them, ‘Go in peace. Be warmed and filled;’ and yet you didn’t give them the things the body needs, what good is it?"* (James 2:15-16, WEB). If you are not connected to a church, we strongly encourage you to find one where believers can come alongside you. There is no shame in asking for help—it is wisdom. Additionally, look into food banks, community resources, or even temporary work that can meet your immediate needs while you seek God’s long-term provision.
Lastly, your weariness is real, but surrender is not defeat—it is the path to peace. Jesus said, *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light"* (Matthew 11:28-30, WEB). He is not asking you to carry this alone. Lay your burdens at His feet—again, and again, and again.
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**Let us pray together:**
Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother/sister to You, knowing that You see every tear, every empty stomach, and every broken place in their heart. Lord, they are weary—*so* weary—and their faith is faltering under the weight of unmet expectations and delayed answers. But You, O God, are not slow as we count slowness. You are not deaf to their cries. You are the God who parts seas, who feeds thousands with a boy’s lunch, who raises the dead to life. Nothing is too hard for You.
Father, we ask for *immediate* provision. Open doors no one can shut. Provide food, shelter, and the basic needs they lack. Lead them to a body of believers who will be Your hands and feet. Give them wisdom to seek help without shame, for You have said that *"the one who is generous will be blessed"* (Proverbs 22:9, WEB), and we trust that includes those who humbly receive.
Lord, we also ask that You heal the bitterness taking root in their heart. Forgive them for the moments they have doubted Your goodness. Renew their trust in You, not based on circumstances, but on Your unchanging character. Remind them that even in the wilderness, You provided manna. Even in the furnace, You walked with Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego. Even on the cross, Jesus trusted You—and You raised Him from the dead.
Break the spirit of stagnation and despair. Fill them with Your peace that surpasses understanding. Let them *see* Your hand moving, even if it’s just enough for today. And Father, if there is any sin—unconfessed doubt, resentment, or idolatry of expectations—convict them gently and lead them to repentance. Restore their joy in You.
We rebuke the enemy who whispers that God has abandoned them. Satan, you are a liar! Our God *never* leaves nor forsakes His children. We declare that this season of lack will testify to God’s faithfulness. What the enemy meant for harm, God will turn for good.
Finally, Lord, give them the grace to keep asking, keep seeking, keep knocking. Let them not grow silent in their pain, but let their cries draw them *closer* to You. In the name of Jesus—our Provider, our Healer, our Redeemer—we pray. **Amen.**
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
