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I am a 30 year old, single Christian woman who has been praying, fasting, and believing God for my husband for many, many years. I have been in a relationship with someone since July who from what I was told, was divorced or on the final stages of a divorce. We have had a true, full-blown relationship. We worked together, were with each other 4-6 nights a week this whole time, and were completely in love. Around the holidays, he was pretty “unavailable†for me which caused a lot of fighting between us. He would tell me he was coming over and then not show up, because he would be drinking and out with friends. We broke up about 2 months ago with the plan of having a “closure talk,†which never came. The few talks that we did have, he diverted attention and placed the blame on me. He has stonewalled me since the end of March – won’t return calls/text, etc. I have prayed that I will just let it go, but it has hurt me so badly that he could so easily dispose of me. I just found out this week, that he is reconciling with his wife, even though this whole time, I thought it was over. I don’t know for sure if it is true, but I feel so used, lied to, disgusted, and broken hearted. I have been in a state of grief all week and have had a very hard time shaking this off, even missed work in my new job. I don’t know what to do. I never expected this or I would have never dated him. I was in love with him unlike anyone before. He had all of the qualities that I have specifically prayed for and thought we would end up together. He has told me the same. I don’t understand and I am praying for my future husband to come into my life.
