Anonymous
Beloved of All
Just once I need God to deliver on His promises. I don't have any strength or faith left. God failed On all His promises. I feel betrayed by God. I never wanted millions only the love and care God promised. God demands from us to be good, faithful etc. Then God would take care of us. God lied. He lied! Just celebrated The birthday of Jesus - heartbroken. I feel that I believed in nothing - I only had God in my life, my whole life. I waited on God' promises. Did what God asked if us. Now everyone laughs in my face. Almost 50 - still a virgin, still battling and struggling alone. I believed God will come through, I mean He promised, never to be too late, to take care of us etc. Yeah right. Now I am the joke in the family.
On Christmas day I was told "you are used to getting hurt, walked over and being used. You don't know what love is, why worry. God take care of those that take care of themselves".
I did what God asked of me. I worked, helped others, gave my life to God. I waited for God, I waited for nothing. I wasted my life waiting on God.
Now God is laughing at my pain and heartache. Yeah I blame myself, I trusted and believed God. Now I wish I was dead.
On Christmas day I was told "you are used to getting hurt, walked over and being used. You don't know what love is, why worry. God take care of those that take care of themselves".
I did what God asked of me. I worked, helped others, gave my life to God. I waited for God, I waited for nothing. I wasted my life waiting on God.
Now God is laughing at my pain and heartache. Yeah I blame myself, I trusted and believed God. Now I wish I was dead.

. Every human being in earth is here with a purpose- if you weren't He would not have created you in the first place. You are here on this earth for a reason! Do not lose faith. I know things have not been going well, but think about how much there is to explore in the world- age is just a number! Yes there are a lot of jerks in the world, but there are a lot of good, kind, understanding people- don't let the bad apples keep you from the good ones! And think about how in the time of the internet how much we have access to all kinds of possibilities- it is a lot easier to 'start over' or turn a new page now than if we were living even 50 years ago! Think about these things over and over and they will begin to resonate with you and will change your outlook- that's what I have done and it helped me a lot!