LostAgain123
Prayer Warrior
Heavenly Father,
Your holiness and you will never be separated, your kingdom and you will never be separated, your power and you will never be separated.
I ask with a hardened heart to see proof of your love for me. My walk in faith has been filled with heartache and pain. My prayers have been answered with harsh punishment or silence. Each acknowledgement of your has been a twister that has destroyed my life. Like Job everything has been taken from me. I mourned, I cried, I prayed, I worshiped, I praised you, and I learned your lessons.
As a child being punished I'm more fearful of your wrath than aware of your love. I cover my face as a child prepared to be struck when I pray. Asking for more faith gives me the fear of your tests of my faith, asking for more strength gives me fear of your process to strengthen me, asking for proof of love has been met with nothing but silence and more punishment. The strength and wisdom you have granted me thus have been a harsh lesson that comes with a great price.
I relied on you and gave you all my pain. I submitted my life, my wife, my son, all my possessions to you and each day you pull them further away from me. Each day I've read and meditated on psalms to know that you would lift me up. Each time more and more enemies beat me down.
My heart, my soul, and my body can't take much more. I have confessed and asked for forgiveness. I have forgiven all who trespass against me. I have forgiven my wife for leaving and taking everything away from me but then she goes further away.
I am praying that maybe you will hear other's prayers cause my prayers are being ignored. I just want proof of your love. Something that I'm not being ignored. Something.
Your holiness and you will never be separated, your kingdom and you will never be separated, your power and you will never be separated.
I ask with a hardened heart to see proof of your love for me. My walk in faith has been filled with heartache and pain. My prayers have been answered with harsh punishment or silence. Each acknowledgement of your has been a twister that has destroyed my life. Like Job everything has been taken from me. I mourned, I cried, I prayed, I worshiped, I praised you, and I learned your lessons.
As a child being punished I'm more fearful of your wrath than aware of your love. I cover my face as a child prepared to be struck when I pray. Asking for more faith gives me the fear of your tests of my faith, asking for more strength gives me fear of your process to strengthen me, asking for proof of love has been met with nothing but silence and more punishment. The strength and wisdom you have granted me thus have been a harsh lesson that comes with a great price.
I relied on you and gave you all my pain. I submitted my life, my wife, my son, all my possessions to you and each day you pull them further away from me. Each day I've read and meditated on psalms to know that you would lift me up. Each time more and more enemies beat me down.
My heart, my soul, and my body can't take much more. I have confessed and asked for forgiveness. I have forgiven all who trespass against me. I have forgiven my wife for leaving and taking everything away from me but then she goes further away.
I am praying that maybe you will hear other's prayers cause my prayers are being ignored. I just want proof of your love. Something that I'm not being ignored. Something.
