God

[Guest]

Dear Heavenly Father God,

If you are out there why do you hate me so much.... you like me enough to keep me going but u dont like me enough to help me be happy... I wish a lot of times when I was in Afghan that I would just have gotten hit by one of the rockets and called it a day... Every time in my life I think things are gonna go right and that you brought me some good... it seems to fall apart... i dont get it my lord.... its been sad to see the caskets loaded into the planes to ship back home and its even worse to see the body presented to the family when I made it home but part of me envies them... they dont have to deal with having the best thing in their lives put right in front of them just to tease them and take them away... like a carrot in front of a horses mouth just to keep them moving.... lord I know the best thing in life are not easy but why do you make it soooo hard on me.... ive already been through enough ****... Ive been through things others cant even imagine and im still here... why... I know im not the best person but I try... I really do... I wanna change who I am but its not gonna happen when things keep going the way they do... I just wanna be happy... thats all I ask... where am I messing up... U wont show me.. U keep putting great thigns in front of me just to tease me.... im worn out my lord... I just want one thing... just one thing in my life to go right... im not asking for a lot... I dont want money... I dont want fame... I dont want recognition... I just want to love and be loved back by someone that I truly care about....... why is that so hard... I try and trust and it always falls apart.... why my lord? you know what.... having people try and kill ya and rockets flying over your head makes you think.... and it makes me realize that my path isnt the safest... I dont care.. you can kill me tomorrow my lord but before that happens just please... please let me be close to someone I truly want to be with in this world... let me love and be loved back... thats something ive never had for some reason... it always falls apart and I dont know y... im lost... I really am... I really care for this girl and I havent seen anything in return.... I know about free will and you wont force anyone into doing nething they dont want to and I get that... but while I was in Afghan I thought I loved someone... then that went to hell... why is it at the worst parts of my life im left alone... yea I know you are there but you are not here to hold me in your arms... you are not here to hold me close when things get bad... I sit here alone all the time and most of the time I wish you would just end it instead of let met go through this.... I would rather be captured by a bunch of hajjes and tortured then killed then go through this my whole life.... it feels like nothing good is gonna ever come my way.... and part of me feels betrayed cause how come if you love us so much you will let us suffer our whole lives?

 

[Lacey]

Dear Jesus Christ~

Thank You for letting this guest come to this site, because You have things You want to tell them. Thank You for Your service to America. God thanks You. There aren't many people who could do your job. Jesus, show this man that You don't hate him at all. You love him and sent Your one Son to die a horrible death to bridge the gap. Jesus is your bridge to friendship with The Father. We are all in a war. It's a spiritual war. With a real enemy who hates us, and wants us dead. But, in the Name of Jesus, you're going to push through to victory, with God's help, and with the prayers of your brothers and sisters. Thank you for being honest with your feelings in your post. God is big, and He can take it. God wants you alive at this particular time. He has plans for you! He wants to fulfill all your heart's desires, in the proper time. He put those desires in you! But we are all( all christians) going through the fire of refining. When you heat metal, the impurities rise to the surface, and need to be skimmed off. That is what God is doing in your life, and in my life. He is making us pure gold, just like Jesus.I know it hurts. I have been in grief for years. But I am coming through victorious, and if you'll hang on, and wait for God's timing, you'll be victorious too, and your dreams will be realized. Good things are going to come your way! You are being tested, just like Job. Do you have a Bible? I recommend a Living Bible because you can understand every word.When you crush a rose petal, perfume comes out. God wants to see what comes out of your heart when you are crushed in spirit. Will you still love Him even when you feel forsaken? Will you still believe His word, when you feel alone and depressed beyond words? Will you choose to praise Him (an act of your will) even when it appears there are only dark clouds? I encourage you to find some praise music CDs (christian) or a christian radio station and praise Him even when you don't feel like it. God inhabits the praises of His people! The enemy can't stand it when you praise Him!So praise Him alot and watch the devil run! I am believing God for the woman of your dreams to be your helpmate, in God's perfect timing. I stand with you my brother, for wonderful things from the Lord who loves you. But you have to pick up your weapons. It is an unseen war. I am standing in agreement for you. Youre greatly loved! You are greatly valued! You just have to wait, and trust him, and grow and you will be amazed what miracles He does in your life, and for you, because He loves you!Don't be dis-couraged, be en-couraged in Jesus Name. He wants to show you how to be a mighty warrior for Him!

"The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18

"Let us therefore come boldly before the throne of grace, that we may find mercy and grace to help in time of need."Hebrews 4:16

"For the Lord is a sun and a shield;the Lord will give grace and glory:no good thing will He withhold for them that walk uprightly." Psalm 84:11

"Faithful is the one who calls you, and He will also bring it to pass." l Thess 5:24

"Humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time." l Peter 5:6

"Blessed are they that have not seen and yet have believed." John 20:29 (believed before they saw it with their eyes)

"Whatever you ask in My Name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. " John 14:13

"Thou hast given him his heart's desire, and has not withheld the request of his lips." Psalm 21:2