God, you don't love me. Why did you give me this ridiculous existence?

[ITryMyBest]

My life is bullshit.

I had an online business that completely failed after excelling for a few years, financial issues mounting, my wife who I loved very much, and was my rock, my everything, left me and no longer loves me.

I don't blame her. I'm short, bald and going balder, have small little hands and feet.. she was so beautiful. I used to provide, now I can't.

I had a small raise in my job, but it's just enough for her and I to no longer qualify for government help (we're still married so file everything together because we started her immigration process while married, and I want to still help her.. She didn't marry me for papers, she never asked it was something I offered to help with). So now she can't get food stamps that were helping her... so my raise will now go to health insurance for our daughter and food, and I will have less income than before.

I'm a fucking bum. I'm driving the same car I had since high school. I'm a broker also and worked very hard to sell a business where I would have gotten a 50k commission, and the seller had a few violations he never cleared up, and landlord wouldn't write lease for the buyer, and buyer lost faith.

Now I have another deal, interested seller and buyer, but the seller's lawyer is butchering the contract, and the seller's daughter is throwing in some impossible clauses.... after hours and hours of work on my part, showing the business.

All a mean joke. So close to closing these things, and then some unfair bullshit happens in the end. The story of my fucking life.

Wife leaves me, businesses fail, mess up right in the end.

I'm doing marketing for a company, and we were really gaining ground in some product areas, and then the manufacturers have come and started cracking down on the owner of the company, not allowing him to sell anymore... that's my actual job now. I was doing so well... and all for naught. A year of work, building up the site online, and now we can't sell the products we've been working towards.

This life I have is so long, painful, uneventful, unfilled with love.

I SERIOUSLY pictured a gun and shooting myself today, but look at my daughter. My one shining light in this life. The only thing that makes me feel like continuing on......

God doesn't give a fucking shit about me.... he wanted me to suffer in this dumb life I have. Just suffering.

Show me different God. Please. I've worked on being as grateful as possible... I've worked on being nice with everyone around me (why... when so many people around us are wicked and use us)... this life is bullshit.

Don't know what to do. Need help.

 

[sandra]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[lm119lm119]

Remember your daughter and family. Cry out to God for help and strength.  God's grace is sufficient even when it doesn't feel like it. Stay the course and don't give up on God's strength, grace, mercy, and blessing.

 

[Cruciano]

I pray for you. In Jesus name, Amen.

 

[ITryMyBest]

Remember your daughter and family. Cry out to God for help and strength.  God's grace is sufficient even when it doesn't feel like it. Stay the course and don't give up on God's strength, grace, mercy, and blessing.

I hope so... Please God... help me. Thank you

My wife was my everything... even when everything was tough, she was there... she has proven to me time and time again that I'm worthless to her now........ this is what hurts the most. I could deal with other tough times, but she was my baby... God, why'd you strip her from my life????

 

[Don]

SOMETIMES WE ARE BROUGHT TO THE END OF SELF TO FIND GOD. I USE TO THINK I WAS SELF SUFFICIENT UNTIL ONE DAY I HAD A HEART ATTACK AND HAD TO RETIRE. NOW I KNOW EVERY BREATH I BREATH IS GIVEN BY A LOVING GOD. IT WAS A BIG WAKE UP CALL. NOW I LIVE TO GOD AND HIS HAND IS UPON MY LIFE. I UNDERSTAND YOUR PAIN BUT GOD IS WORKING ON YOU, YOU CAN BET. I PRAY YOU WILL BE ABLE TO SEE IT.

 

[NeedGodsLove44]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[flora]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Divine Light]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[BlessedbyGod]

Father,

Hear his cries to You. Father, Your Word tells us in (Proverbs 4:20-22 - My Son give attention to my Words, incline Your ear to my sayings. Do not let them depart from your eyes; keep them in the midst of your heart; for they are LIFE to those who find them, and HEALTH to all their flesh) and in (Proverbs 3:5-8 - Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and LEAN NOT ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING; in all your ways ACKNOWLEDGE Him and He shall direct your paths. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and depart from evil. It will be HEALTH to your flesh, and STRENGTH to your bones.) and (John 10:10 - The thief does not come EXCEPT to STEAL, and to KILL, and to DESTROY. I have come that they may have LIFE, and that they may have it more ABUNDANTLY.) and (Isaiah 41:10 - Fear not, for I am with you; be not DISMAYED, for I am your God. I will STRENGTHEN you, YES, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.) and (Nahum 1:9 - He will make an utter end of it. AFFLICTION will NOT rise up a second time.) and (Isaiah 40:31 - But those who WAIT on the Lord shall RENEW their STRENGTH; they shall MOUNT UP with wings like eagles, they shall RUN and not be WEARY, they shall WALK and NOT faint.) and (Philippians 4:6-7 - Be anxious for nothing, but in EVERYTHING by prayer and supplication, with THANKSGIVING, let your REQUESTS be made known to God; and the PEACE of God, which SURPASSES all UNDERSTANDING, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.) and (Joel 2:25 - So I will RESTORE to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten.) and (Hebrews 10:35 - Therefore DO NOT cast away your CONFIDENCE which has GREAT REWARD.) and (Hebrews 10:23 - Let us HOLD fast the confession of our HOPE WITHOUT WAVERING, for HE who promised is FAITHFUL!!!!!!!), in Jesus' name, AMEN. To the Glory of God, our loving Father, AMEN & AMEN!